Wah.. I went to UM just now. Eh no, i walked to UM. Was planning to go swimming actually. But then when we reached there, the pool is close until next week because of some technical problem. Shhss.. Restless.

Got somebody kutuk my blog eh? He/she said that my blog stories too many things that happen daily, not things that are good to be read and sourceful. *Blegh =P to u*.. Didn’t scold him/her back also. Because i don’t want to bother bout what he/she talk also. Biaq pi la! Hahah.

Why am i so passive leh these days? Tired? Lazy? Heartbroken? … I also don’t know. I don’t go hang out like i used to anymore. And i don’t crave for McD like i always do before this. Why leh? ~Changements du gouts?~ (taste changing?) Maybe also.

After walking back to college, we stopped at scud there for a while to tapau milo ice. Then, i saw someone. I wasn’t sure that was him at first. But i didn’t want to look again as i don’t dare to. Don’t dare?? Yea, because if i do, i will get stuck by looking at his face then i will think of him over and over again.

Why that happen leh? Its not like the first time also this happen to me. Hurm, but its the first time la experiencing things as terrible as this. =( Why couldn’t i just let go leh? Just ignore la, make dunno, buat bodoh je, forget bout him la, relax2 can ady… That is what i keep saying to myself. But in the end, i cannot do it also.

Maybe i need him to act first leh? Say hi first, or smile at me, i will surely reply what. Or maybe i need to say hi to him first. Only he will react ma. But what if he ignores me? Won’t that hurts me more? How am i suppose to know woh. He didn’t say anything also, how to expect me to understand what he wants la. Maybe he don’t bother also if i say hi or smile or what, so i just make dunno la! Its not like i intended to make dunno or ignore him also what.

I think i need time. I really2 need time to console myself and don’t think about that again. Happy or sad, it is just a part of life what. Come what may. *Sobbsobb*