To all me friends out there,

Happy Chinese New Year!

Hope you guys will have a great and blasting one this year!

Collect more angpaus,

gather with all your family relatives and friends.

Gamble till you drop, drink till u get tipsy!

Ahahahah!

GONG XI GONG XI!!!

Woke up early in the morning just now, and hoped for the best in today’s presentation. We had both, 1 c’est la presentation de la politique en France, et j’ai expose sur le pouvoir judiciaire, et la suite c’est la presentation qui s’agit de Monsieur Pagnol et son roman intitulé ‘Le Château de Ma Mère’. (The first one is about the politique in France and i had to present about the justice powers, then after that we had to present about Marcel Pagnol, a famous autour who wrote the book My Mother’s Castle.

But it was a ’suwey’ day for me today! It was so strange that my diaporama went lost and corrupted in some way, and i had to present without any slides! Kadewaleeeee~~~ Ok then so i was blamed for not keeping another copy in any pendrive but hey, how was i to know that only my part will lost that time. Its super weird because ce n’est que mon diaporama qui est perdu!! (only mine lost!) Merrdeeesss!! But eventhough i presented without slides and stuffs like that, i was able to present also. The lecturer said something that lifted my spirit up and up till now, i feel so bersemangat and i will try my very best to improve better and excel! Merci Monsieur Azhar!

“Vous lisez beaucoup, mais je sais bien que vous avez peur parce que votre diaporama est perdu. Mais en comparant les 4 personnes dans ta groupe, vous êtes toujours la gagnante! Comme vous êtes a l’aise dans l’orale, essayez de parler avec une langue assez haute, ça veut dire, utilisez les mots que vous avez chercher et reformuler avec vos propres mots. Comme ça vous pouvez aider vos amis a mieux comprendre. C’est un défi! Brève, ça va!”

(You read the text alot, but i know that you are scared because your diaporama had lost. But comparing you with your friends in the group, you were and always the winner! And since you already are good in orale, try to reformulate the words and the informations you found so that you can help your friends understand better. Its a challenge for you! Briefly, its good!)

Yeap, with this, i have more confidence in myself and i hope i will get the same (infact better!) testimony from him again! I am so happy. Haha!! Not to forget the presentation of Marcel Pagnol during Monsieur Liew’s class. He said très bien too!

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So today, we had a netball tournament and guess what, we lost! Hahaha. Too bad, i don’t know how to play netball, i nearly bounce the ball throughout the game because i am biasa with basketball already! Ahahahahah~ Tant pis la!!

Hi folks. I am so tired at the moment so i’ll just post up a little things that i wish to say, and some photos. Yeap, my birthday was a month ago, but i’m still receiving presents from my loved ones. A few days after i arrived IPBA, Ayn gave me a Bollywood DVD which i never had the chance to watch it because of the pact schedules, then Grace gave me a cute little christmas towel, Adelynn bought a very beautiful bracelet, Idzrul with a nice bag, Che Nad, a little pink plushie and last but not least, Atikah gave me a very big Kungfu Hustle lollipop which i shared with almost everyone in the cafe in block 4.

A christmas towel from Grace,

A bracelet from Adelynn,

A Wild Channel bag from Idzrul,

A cute pinkish smily plushie from Che Nad,

Group photo of a farewell gathering for Che Nad, my basketball mate.

Thanks to all of them so much, it has been really nice having them around and it is a great jo to have known a bunch of friends like them.

I often thought about all the happiness that i want when i grow up. However, past experiences kept bugging me until at one instance, i want to give up. I do wrongs since i was small, up till today, non-stop. I knew and i always felt guilty, but what can i do. An apologize does not mean a big thing, i knew that, but that is all i can do. Who can i blame for all my immature attitudes, and who am i to blame when all of that were done by me myself.

Now that i am getting older, i know i can make my own decisions, i know some of the ‘whats’ i did and i want to do is right. But in some other hearts and eyes, i am always young, naive, and my doings must be traced so that they can assure that i don’t do mistakes. Other hearts understand me, but they have yet to understand me from top to bottom. Some eyes don’t see how good i do, but they always comment and judge me.

Being away for so many years, i know it is logical when they treat me that way. Ways of showing affection are different from one and another. I am always left beside, and i had always shed my tears because i don’t like to be left aside. But however, i pretend as if i am not sad, i am ok with it, and when other people ask, i said its okay if they leave me. The truth is, i am not okay. I want to let everyone know that i am not okay, but it is just hard to let everything out. Even to the person i share the same blood with, it is hard to tell and let all out because i know they wouldn’t understand. The more i share, the more that i’ll be blamed.

8 months to go, then i’ll be somewhere far, farther than i can be. Of course i feel happy that i can further my studies in somewhere over the coast, and of course there is sadness that lies between. I wish i don’t need to go, but at the same time, i am happy for the opportunity. And this time, i will be away for 3 years, which is not a short time, and probably will not be back for a subsequent 3 years. The idea of leaving will always be a glum one for me, but i hope when i get back, things will change.

“Where’s the promised happiness?
I understand
Let’s not talk about it
Love has faded
The dream has become distant
I count each and every happy and unhappy thing
Once more you’re reluctant to let go
Those feelings of having loved are too deep
I still remember them…”

(Where’s the promised happiness, Capricorn, Jay Chou, 2008.)

The first day of the new term doesn’t seem to go on that well. I actually felt a little disappointed, hearing all the stuffs that we had to face now and in future, and some people doesn’t seem to move forward with better spirit and better attitude. Even me who don’t really have any new year resolution, i decided that i will do my best in everything, studies, social, and stuffs like that. However, in class wise, the lecturer welcomed us with wide hands open, happily, but not hesitating to give us more works because they knew well, we, the students spent the holidays with all the leisures and rests and i bet, everybody had benefit something from the long holidays.

But the drastic changes is one of the most scariest and i can say, unpleasing to all students. (At least i am) I realised that students of all IPG are obliged to follow the rules in this Akta 174. The student affairs department will be restructured and the new ones will be the officers from the ministry it self. What i hope for this time is that, they will do their very best to provide all the relevant needs of all students. And i would very much like if they are not racist like the previous ones, where for them, skirts below knees are very short and obscene. Haha!

As you all know (if you have been reading my blog since the very start), i am famous for my ‘bodoh sombong’ nickname even though i am not that bodoh or not that sombong, hehe :P. But surprisingly, I’ve been elected as the assistant of the class, and i would like to thank my classmates for giving me this opportunity even though i don’t really like it. I don’t think i can give my all to be a good assistant, and i admit, i am a lazy girl. I don’t feel like i deserve to get this post, because of my self, who likes to protest and argue the upper ones.

Whatever is it, i just hope that this new terms won’t be that hectic, busy and stuffs like that, because my mates and i will be having exams on the March and so automatically we all will be busy even without homeworks or assignments. (and i am blogging now, :p)

So, till then, see you guys in my next post!

My new year resolution :

I don’t have any serious ones, because i never achieve any success with this resolution thingy. I remembered, last year i was so desperate on losing weight, not spending more money on foods and useless stuffs, not to get involved with any lovey dovey thing, bla this and bla that. But in the end, those were all dreams, hopeless dreams, and history! I ended up gaining more weight, eating good food, buying useless stuffs which i can’t even remember where i placed them, and all that are seriously childish! So now, i decided that i won’t and i really won’t do any resolution! No way! To those who did this and wanted to repeat on planning a resolution again, i wish you guys good luck, and stay firm!

What I’m gonna do is just to continue what i am doing currently, which is to finish my foundation year and say bye bye to my ‘guru’. Spend more time with family is a must but that depends on my schedule also. How i wish next year’s class will not be that hectic and busy like this year’s so that i can spend more time doing other things maybe like looking for a part time job? Haha. (If only wishes can come true..)

So here, i would like to wish everyone a…..

Happy New Year 2009!