place where Jessica craps and rants
Its 11.50pm, ten minutes till midnight. And why am i even telling about the time when i know when i publish this entry on my blog, it would be 12.30am or maybe 2.30am already.
So what did i do during the 6 free days? I promised myself that i would relax, but working, at the same time. But i just didn’t. I have been working on useless craps, like watching the same movie over and over again, taking afternoon naps even though i never feel tired like i were during college days. I have never go out town since then. And i have been trying to blog, numerous time, but something kept me away from posting it. So u can see, i have 18 drafts, since last Sunday. Awkwardness.
Today was quite an interesting day, or yesterday, because its already 5th of June now. I spent the whole day reading a new book, or e-book, (whatever u call that). A book which i planned on buying it when i drop by any bookstore, but i got it in ‘e’ version, thanks to a very good friend of mine. At least, i claim he’s one of the very good friends i have, yes, i claimed.
I loved the book. I’m on my way to Chapter 13 now. Just to acknowledge.
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Its a total weirdness when i was so anticipated to go back to my hometown, when there’s nothing much that i could do here. Because i can’t really talk to anyone. Sigh. But i do love staying at home, with family. Its just that, i needed some one that i could confide in. I really do. And i am so thankful to have this senior who will always work with me whenever i feel like i had something to spill out. I am grateful that the internet works, but i know it wasn’t enough. I needed something more. Anyways, i should say, thanks for being there for me.
What is the matter with me? I couldn’t seem to find myself the way i want me to be. What the hell?
Will be blogging for more maybe next time. I wanted to blog, but i am blanked now. I was actually waiting for someone to share something, but since it is going to be an absence, i might as well get my feet off the ground and start dreaming. Till then, adios, and good night.
It seems your holiday is not as happy as it should be…
Well, why dont you try to make some changes?
Start small & you might end up with something big.
Yea, i know. Well, there are some changes now at home, but it is not very good. It is very complicating. U wouldn’t wanna know. But, thanks, anyway..
It’s called “Teenage Dilemma”…whatever it is…don’t sulk over it. It’s always better than “Midlife Crisis”!
Another 20 years maybe for my midlife crisis?