Ola guys! It has been quite a time since i last updated my blog! I was quite busy with exams, and there are alot more to come in these coming weeks. Studies are tough, but i can cope with that, i guess.

Other than that, everything is going on perfectly well, except for the moodswings i had every one of these days. It is hard to accept the fact that i’m feeling very lonely here, eventhough i tried to get on with it. Blame the ugly weather for being gloomy all the time, blame myself for avoiding such people whom i refuse to see. I have been going out alone these few days, to the movies alone, walking in town alone, because i felt that it isn’t that bad to hang out with yourself after all. Cinemas are always empty, so its like me alone in the big room so who cares right? Yea, that’s the point. Nobody cares.

My fellow friends in Malaysia have been quite quiet too, i swear. Have not talked to Momy since few weeks ago, sisters are quiet too. But i bet, they must be having fun now because its the year end break, Christmas shopping, sales here and there, great. And i’m stuck in this wonderful town, no other place to go. Yippee.

And its cold too. Its terribly cold.

Perhaps this is the first time living in a totally different place, with entirely different people. Perhaps i’ll feel better after a while. Maybe i should start mixing with a whole different group of people, learn new stuffs. Or maybe i should just leave time pass and get on with life like this. Maybe, hurm.

So yea, what’s for Christmas this year? People said celebrating Christmas in an european country would be surprisingly wonderful because of winter and chimneys. I bought my christmas tree, decorated it a little bit, by myself. Its not that bad, maybe i should go boyfriend-hunting and celebrate Christmas with him and his family. Would be a good excuse to be a little bit loving this year. Haha. It’s really a waste that most of my coursemates do not celebrate Christmas. It would be better to have someone u know to share this feeling. In a way, i’m glad that i blogged about this, it makes me feel better when i expressed how my heart feels when there’s nobody to talk to.

Nevertheless, i should say that this is a whole new experience for me, and i am looking forward for more. Give me some time, and maybe i’ll get to know more people and more things in this historical country. Again, not many of us get the chance to spend years in other countries without needing to pay a single cent. So, why complain? I’ll go find a bunch of friends to tag along, and yea. Hopefully everything will go on well and fine.

Uwa uwa uwa.. I miss my buckie. I miss him licking my hand when i wanna leash him. I miss him biting my fingers when i wanna unleash him. I miss his bulu. I wanna pet pet his head. Tsk tsk. I really really miss him.

Should i go back next February? Financial wise, memang enough wan. If i really want to go back, it will cost me around 1000 euros for flight, trains, souvenirs, and pocket money for me to spend in Malaysia. I have that. The problem is when i compare to a one week holiday in UK or somewhere, it might be cheaper than that 1000 euros, probably 50% from that amount. If i go back to my hometown, i can meet my loved ones, i mean, all of them. But then when i think again, i will balik again during the semester break in June/July. So what’s the point going back so many times and wasting so much money? Thing again and again. If i tak balik, i won’t be in the family photo. Ahhh!! That’s a nightmare ler!! Haihz. But sometimes, not everyone gets to get in the family photo. Take Yiang as an example, she was always away in Australia, and there are several years where she didn’t come back for CNY. But that’s another story because her father is super rich, like richer than Brunei king, so.. Hurm. I kinda need opinions now. I have super lots of friends in UK, my neighbour’s daughter is in UK, and my mom’s bestfriend’s daughter is in UK too. So i might as well visit them and celebrate CNY together? They might have super lots of celebrations in UK compared to France because, yea France just don’t celebrate asian traditions, so. Hurm. I don’t know. Me needs opinion.