place where Jessica craps and rants
Ola guys! It has been quite a time since i last updated my blog! I was quite busy with exams, and there are alot more to come in these coming weeks. Studies are tough, but i can cope with that, i guess.
Other than that, everything is going on perfectly well, except for the moodswings i had every one of these days. It is hard to accept the fact that i’m feeling very lonely here, eventhough i tried to get on with it. Blame the ugly weather for being gloomy all the time, blame myself for avoiding such people whom i refuse to see. I have been going out alone these few days, to the movies alone, walking in town alone, because i felt that it isn’t that bad to hang out with yourself after all. Cinemas are always empty, so its like me alone in the big room so who cares right? Yea, that’s the point. Nobody cares.
My fellow friends in Malaysia have been quite quiet too, i swear. Have not talked to Momy since few weeks ago, sisters are quiet too. But i bet, they must be having fun now because its the year end break, Christmas shopping, sales here and there, great. And i’m stuck in this wonderful town, no other place to go. Yippee.
And its cold too. Its terribly cold.
Perhaps this is the first time living in a totally different place, with entirely different people. Perhaps i’ll feel better after a while. Maybe i should start mixing with a whole different group of people, learn new stuffs. Or maybe i should just leave time pass and get on with life like this. Maybe, hurm.
So yea, what’s for Christmas this year? People said celebrating Christmas in an european country would be surprisingly wonderful because of winter and chimneys. I bought my christmas tree, decorated it a little bit, by myself. Its not that bad, maybe i should go boyfriend-hunting and celebrate Christmas with him and his family. Would be a good excuse to be a little bit loving this year. Haha. It’s really a waste that most of my coursemates do not celebrate Christmas. It would be better to have someone u know to share this feeling. In a way, i’m glad that i blogged about this, it makes me feel better when i expressed how my heart feels when there’s nobody to talk to.
Nevertheless, i should say that this is a whole new experience for me, and i am looking forward for more. Give me some time, and maybe i’ll get to know more people and more things in this historical country. Again, not many of us get the chance to spend years in other countries without needing to pay a single cent. So, why complain?
I’ll go find a bunch of friends to tag along, and yea. Hopefully everything will go on well and fine.
Jesss!!!! yeap…it has been a while since ur last post..
It’s ok to spend ur time alone…
but..PLEASE,PLEASE,
don’t walk around town alone..
it could be dangerous..
Please take care of yourselve ok?
oh…i want to join ur “boyfriend-hunting” mission also..
bored to be single…
your writings shown that you are so growing up already,dear.
take care and all the best
I’m really glad to know that u will finally find ur way out of dis mess..
About ur friends in Malaysia that have been really quiet(I believe I am one of those)Well, I am not having fun either..to be stuck at home..no friends around the neighbourhood..slow internet connection..sigh~
Go mingle with the white-skinned! u have 3 more years to complain about..ok!
take care.
p/s: teringin nak smbut christmas jugak~~
Jezz, I think you need to learn to say YES instead of giving excuses.
Go & live France!
Viva la France!
@ Oli, yea lor, so long didn’t update dy, from now onwards i will update selalu ady.
Hehe, i don’t think that walking in town can be that dangerous bcause there are not too many psychos here. Psychos with bikes, they’re alot in my residence so i think its better to stay out of house compound!
@ Faridahanum, thank you!
@ Idzrul, i tried mingling around not only with those white skinned, but also black and yellow skinned. And tell u, these white skinned people, they are a total seduction! And i will, tangkap one!
@ Koko, yea, viva la France! no more excuses after this! I am touring around france!! wooohoooo!!