Bonjour chers amis!

Since a few weeks ago, i went hunting for apartment in town, and much to my satisfaction, i found a very nice apartment, suitable for a single woman like me. I was so happy, that everything is finally settled besides signing contract and deposits. =) I am really anticipated to move out as my current apartment is much too far from town and faculty, and having the chance to live in town is one of the many best ways to experience the french culture! Je suis vachement contente!! ^^

And so i realized that recently, i did a lot of stuffs that reminds myself that i’m literally growing up. Well, in both ways of course, positively and negatively. Yesterday, as i was having coffee with a friend of mine, we actually talked about this. We talked about how beautiful life is as we become older, and how wonderful that we are both friends even though we come from 2 very different backgrounds and origins. And when i went back home, i thought of it over and over again.

The best part is that, before this, oh God knows how lazy am i, how dependent am i, and how sloppy am i, especially because i’m the youngest in my family. Everything was done there and then, and i was never worried for everything will be done definitively. But now, it’s like i’m a totally different person. I clean my house like everyday, i discover new recipes, i do the laundry, i cook, i do my sundry shopping every weekend, i go for coffee, i pay my bills, and lots lots more. I’m independent. =)

The bad side of me being an independent woman is that i tend to disobey rules and orders. I stop listening to others, i never care more for those who are not close with me anymore. I don’t care if i don’t have any friends to spend the day with, on top of it, i’m happy and comfortable being with myself. I don’t care about how others are doing, quite because i know that they don’t bother about me as well. Maybe the word “selfish” applies perfectly in this context. But, i believe that being selfish to a certain extent and to certain people is selfish in a good way anyway. We know what’s best for us and we ignore what’s not good for us. Right? Or am i wrong? Hurm.

Whatever it is, all these changes come naturally. Previously, i never liked the idea of being a woman, needing to do everything on my own. But now, i decided that being one will be totally awesome!