Did i change? If there is someone who’s really close to me then he would absolutely notice if i have changed or not. But the question is, if i do, then in what sense? Because i totally am feeling like something is really not right now, especially the thought about me considering myself as a mature grown up young lady. I feel so, lame for even talking about that.

Sigh.. I kinda felt sad that some of my friends are not my friends anymore, some only came to me for important helps, some stays like they have always did, and some just gave up on me with no replies no messages and so much more. I feel so awful, and horrible.

Well, i know i have been away for quite a long time, but it doesn’t mean that i do not cherish the friendship or whatever relation that we had. Anyone can be in this case, well of course it’s meant to a special somebody, and just so you know, this gap here really made me feel insecure of our relation we built almost 3 years ago. We were so close to each other but then, now, we hardly talk. Yes, we moved on, but not without each other in our lives right? I might have some new friends, but everyone does! And it will not make any difference in any of our lives because friends are forever friends if we believe and truly appreciate each other? Somebody tell me if it’s true or not.

Gosh, i might sound like i’m a little bit too much of a paranoid, talking about these matters, but it really bugs me. The reason why i felt this way is because, i kinda felt left out and ignored by 1 friend i used to be close with. I miss all my friends, those i used to hang out with, friends of which we kid a lot, and those persons i used to concern so much, and i still do. I just made a phone call to my highschool bestfriend, and we talked for like an hour. Well at least i saved 1 sweet friendship, and i hope that somebody who was and is important to me can call me up just to say hi.

Or maybe i should move on with myself, knowing that nobody would read this post?

Sigh. Goodnight.