Uwa uwa uwa.. I miss my buckie. I miss him licking my hand when i wanna leash him. I miss him biting my fingers when i wanna unleash him. I miss his bulu. I wanna pet pet his head. Tsk tsk. I really really miss him.

Should i go back next February? Financial wise, memang enough wan. If i really want to go back, it will cost me around 1000 euros for flight, trains, souvenirs, and pocket money for me to spend in Malaysia. I have that. The problem is when i compare to a one week holiday in UK or somewhere, it might be cheaper than that 1000 euros, probably 50% from that amount. If i go back to my hometown, i can meet my loved ones, i mean, all of them. But then when i think again, i will balik again during the semester break in June/July. So what’s the point going back so many times and wasting so much money? Thing again and again. If i tak balik, i won’t be in the family photo. Ahhh!! That’s a nightmare ler!! Haihz. But sometimes, not everyone gets to get in the family photo. Take Yiang as an example, she was always away in Australia, and there are several years where she didn’t come back for CNY. But that’s another story because her father is super rich, like richer than Brunei king, so.. Hurm. I kinda need opinions now. I have super lots of friends in UK, my neighbour’s daughter is in UK, and my mom’s bestfriend’s daughter is in UK too. So i might as well visit them and celebrate CNY together? They might have super lots of celebrations in UK compared to France because, yea France just don’t celebrate asian traditions, so. Hurm. I don’t know. Me needs opinion.

Yeap yeap, its true. I am loving France, en particulier, Besancon. Wahaha! The people here are seriously nice and friendly! When i was in Malaysia, a lot of people came to me and asked me to take good care of myself because the french won’t help me if i need any help, and they are snobbish, arrogant, and won’t speak English. Ehem! Its not true at all!! Let me tell you something, when i was in a telephone boutique enquiring for some informations, the guy actually asked me so politely : “vous parlez bien francais, si non, je pourrais t’expliquer en anglais si tu veux!” (Do you speak good French because if not, i can explain in English if you wish). See? Before i spoke with that guy, i entered the boutique and queued up behind a makcik, and she actually said “bonjour” to me. And when she finished her stuffs, she said “au revoir, bonne journee” to me. Ahha! So, apa yang snobbish? Huh Huh? :p Please betulkan ye!

Lols. This weekend, we are having this Sonorama thingy happening in Besancon. I’m part of the activity, and i’ll be helping around the town this Saturday and Sunday at the theatre, and i am so happy that i took part! Haha. It’s quite a big thing, (will write more bout sonorama after the event finish next week!) and the most important thing is that the chairman is super kacak! Seriously super macho + handsome! Lol. All volunteers get a free t-shirt, and free nights in clubs too! But i have not go to one because i was so busy with assignments and classes in the evening. So, too bad. Maybe i would go to the next night out after the autumn holidays! Yippee!!

Yea, autumn holidays! I’ll be going to Paris-Rouen-Strasbourg! Yippee to the maximums! Hahax. Never thought of going these places actually but the tickets are not expensive, so i better spend now before the price goes up!

Hahax. Will blog again soon. Its 12.51am now, and i need to get my beauty sleep. I have Sonorama this Saturday so, haha!

Au revoir mes potes!

Hey there.

Heehee. I am finally in France now. Besancon is the place. Here, unlike Penang or Kuala Lumpur, the buildings are very antique and somewhat, creepy. Look at the photos i posted on Facebook, and u shall know. I miss the contemporary batiments in KL and Penang, even houses in Penang are nicer than here. But, please do take note that flowers in Besac are much nicer, bulkier, prettier and more colorful. I can never find red flowers in my hometown, even hibiscus can’t breed for long!

Classes will start next week. Last Monday, we (my friends and i) sat for the TCF (Teste de connaissance de francais) exam, and tomorrow the result will be out! Yeehaw! I wonder which class will i get? With whom will i be? Will the schedule be pact? What time will the class start and end? Oh my goodness. I just can’t wait for the classes to start, at least i don’t have to get sucked in this boring life in my studio, sitting in front of the laptop alone! Haha. *complaincomplain* And i hope that our documents will be settled before October starts. Well, important things like the titre de sejour (ID), student card, bank card, train card and stuffs like that are definitely vital it must be settled before the next holiday because i want to go to Germany and meet Sharan! Weehee!

Ahh! I was away a while just now. A China girl just moved here, and she’s staying opposite my house! Hee! A good start to find a foreign friend huh? When i was lingering around the college last Monday, there are a few China students who greeted me in Mandarin and asked, are u China people? (in Mandarin of course) Everyone knows my Mandarin is “mama-tay” (so-so) only, but at least, i can speak and understand what they were trying to say. Jay Chou! Hehee!!

I wonder how would life be, tomorrow and the following days. I always feel like something is missing, something is not right. God knows. Maybe i should see for myself, what is wrong. And maybe try to make it right. Can i? I doubt that well! Hurm. Perhaps things are not complicated as it may look like, but i prefer to stick to my perception and just do what am i supposed to. Look, from the very start, i already knew that we may never stick like how we used to stick, during our foundation year. Imagine, one can be so close with another one, when she used to talk behind that other person. How hypocrite! And then one can be so harsh to the other one, when last time she depended on the other one so much! Haihz. Life’s like this huh? I see it, and i thank God i don’t have to be in it.

Its 11.18pm now, and 5.18am in Malaysia. Hee. I feel like sleeping, but at the same time i feel like eating because i am hungry now. Haha! Anyways guys. See u in my next post! Have a nice day there!

Its 2.02 am, and i am not asleep yet. *Yawns* Finished reading Ryan’s new blog, and surprisingly, i kinda feel weird and sad when i start to think, again. It is not because that Ryan has got a new blog page or what, but the fact that we are all growing up really sadden me. Chey was once a university girl, came out and start working with companies, but now, she’s a full time housewife, taking care of her son and her husband. (Ça m’étonne, vraiment de voir le changement exact de ma chère sœur.) But its a good thing, still, because her life will be much easier like that, as she has got a good husband that can take care of her and the family. But i will be missing the times when she wants to take me to the lake, but i didn’t want to because i was always afraid that i will fall. Chicken!

Haihz, i scored my exam, badly. So bad that it made me flash back on how i studied for my exams during secondary school. I never passed my exam, because i was so busy for other things but academic. I preferred running at the field, band practice, that i put my studies aside. But thanks a lot to God, i got my SPM, and i am out of  school.

Honestly, i didn’t do my exam well. I didn’t know what happened to myself, because all this while i know i do well, and i never ever stop studying. I won’t get less than 70% and i know, if i get less than that, i can call myself stupid because language is what i really am made for. I only need to focus on 1 subject, and that is the simplest thing i have ever done in my whole life. And what now, i ended up scoring 59/100, ranking second last. I WAS usually the top, at least top 3, but now, i am down below. Haihz, i am disappointed, but i have to accept it anyhow. Knowing that i don’t usually stay at the bottom, i know i will score better in my next exam. (This might sound corky and arrogant, but i need to get my confidence back!)

Anyways, a big felicitation to Atiqa, my classmate for getting the highest for B2. Seriously your efforts really paid!

Its 2.35am, and i gotta go. I have to wake up early tomorow to wash the clothes and then go breakfast with sisters. DimSum i hope!

Au revoir mes cheries!

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Nah Mashitah! Dicte yang kita perlu buat! Haha. Me dirai si tu finis. Merci!

(People! This 2 things are our Cohort’s homework! Haha.)

Je savais, vous êtes tous sache, et vous étés tous très gentils parce que vous faites les meilleures pour les biens de votre étudiants. Mais, savez-vous, on est très occupes quelques fois, et quand il y a le temps libre, on aimerait bien faire les devoirs ou étudier les choses que vous aviez nous donne. Alors, j’espère que vous pouvez nous laisser pendant ce temps la, parce qu’il y a bien d’autre chose que nous devions faire. Je suis désolée, mais je suis très stressée. On apprécie beaucoup les connaissances que vous nous donniez, on vous dit merci bien. On vous aime, et on va vous aimer toujours. Mais, je souhaite que vous puissiez nous donner un peu de temps libre pour étudier soi-même, car c’est pas toujours possible d’accumuler les informations, surtout les connaissances dans les longues heures.
~ Je suis désolée!

Il n y a presque rien a faire tous les soirs! Ce que je fasse, c’est dormir, et faire les recherches inutile sur l’internet. Néanmoins, la connexion d’internet dans l’appartement ne marche pas bien! Ça me fait vraiment très stressée! Figure-toi, quand on a pleins de devoirs a faire, c’est le temps que mon ordinateur devient le plus faible. Et c’est évident que je devrais aller a la bibliothèque pour chercher les infos sur l’ordinateur la, et ouvert les livres pour lire certains choses importants! La bibliothèque, il fait vraiment froid, et c’est toujours possible et très confortable si on dort la bas! Hahaha.

Mais moi, je préfère de rester dans l’appartement parce qu’il y a tous ce que je doit, sauf l’internet. “doit-elle souscrire le broadband alors?” C’est vraiment très cher, mais, je ne pourrais rien faire, sauf d’attendre la connexion d’améliorer, et quelquefois, utiliser l’ordinateur d’amis pour faire les choses. Ahhh, c’est vraiment tres membencikan! Je ne supporte pas d’être une parasite, utiliser toujours les choses qui ne sont pas les miens! =( … Une personne comme moi qui aime passer le temps avant l’ordinateur. Stressée~

Je me sens très seule maintenant. Il me manque toujours. Même si on n’a aucune relation entre nous, je lui pense toujours. Ouais, je suis vraiment stupide, je sais. Mais, l’amour est aveugle! Tout le monde le sait!

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Warning to all, don’t use altavista or any translation tool to translate what i have written here. It will end up like this :

Translated from http://babelfish.yahoo.com/translate_txt

There N is almost nothing has to make every evening! What I do, it is to sleep, and make research useless on the Internet. Nevertheless, the connection of Internet in the apartment does not go well! That really makes me very stressed! Appear yourself, when one has full with duties has to make, it is time that my computer becomes weakest. And it is obvious that I should go to the library to seek the infos on the computer, and open books for reading certain things important! The library, it makes really cold, and it is always possible and very comfortable if one sleeps it low! Hahaha. But me, I prefer to remain in the apartment because there are all what I owe, except the Internet. “does it have to subscribe the broadband then?” It is really very expensive, but, I could not nothing make, except awaiting connection to improve, and sometimes, to use the computer of friends to make the things. Ahhh, it is really very serious! I do not support to be a parasite, to always use the things which are not mine! = (… a person as me which likes to spend time before the computer. Stressée~ I very only feel now. I always miss it. Even if one has no relation between us, I always think to him. Ouais, I am really stupid, I know. But, the love is blind! Everyone knows it!

Hahaha! Oh my God! Makes me feel like i’m a english-dunno girl when i translate those texts though! =.=” What is wrong with babelfish. Funny. I’m rolling on the floor! Hahahahahahhaha~~~~

I’m sure u guys will get the idea of this post, when u read the translation. Haha. It’s not wrong, it is just that the babelfish translate one word by one. So it makes it weird. =P

Sentiments de mon cœur,

ne sera pas chaleureux,

destiné à être blessé,

très mal blessé.

Et toi,

tu peux le voir?

Pendant le soir,

pour centièmes de fois,

moi,

je me restais soi..

Et toi,

tu peux le sentir?

quel horrible à être mentie?

Mais je restais silence,

ne faire jamais aucune offense,

car je sais,

l’offense si je faisais,

ne sera pas écoutée..

Sentiments de mon cœur,

ne sera pas chaleureux,

destiné à être blessé,

très très mal blessé.

Jessica 14/06/2008

Les Recettes :

(LA GRAINE)

 1. Mélangez 3/4 de graine, 1/4 d’eau, 1 verre d’huile d’olive avec du citron et du sel.

2. Ajoutez de la menthe et de la coriandre ciselées.

3. Mélangez bien.

4. Laissez reposer au moins de 3 heures au frais.

(LA SALADE)

1. Coupez les tomates, poivrons et oignons en très petits dès. Conservez les jus.

2. Ciselez ou hachez la menthe et la coriandre.

3. Ajoutez le tout a la graine et mélangez bien.

4. Laissez reposer quelques minutes (voie 1heures au frais si c’est possible.)

(LA SAUCE D’OSSAISONEMENT)

1. Mélangez l’huile d’olive avec le jus de citron, du sel, de la menthe et de la graine.

2. Mélangez bien tout les trois, et voila. Le Taboulet!!