Its the month of December now! And i’m dreaming of a white (not so white) Christmas!! Weehee~ Not to forget Christmas eve and the day after Christmas. Ngee~~ Then January is on his way. So it means Gong Xi Gong Xi! Woohoo~~ Quadruple happiness! Syoknyer…

The movie Sepet was on air a few days ago, and i watched it again today. Then when i finished watching, something popped up in my mind. In the movie, there was one scene where Jason’s bestfriend (Ah Keong) was bitten up by a gang of gangsters because Jason made Jimmy’s (the gang’s leader) sister pregnant and Ah Keong ended up in the hospital. So both Jason and Ah Keong discussed about the incident, and they talked about Jason’s current girlfriend, Orked. Its quite true when they both said that years ago, Malays can marry outside their race easily, without any hard feelings et cetera. For me, its all about what we feel towards each other though. But now, we tend to avoid that, and sometimes, we tend to be racist! It is also true that we are supposed to be more civilised, but even that, il y a toujours les choses qui se passent maux, et il y a toujours les gens qui sont traités inégalement! (…bad things always happen, and many people were treated unevenly.)

That’s sad. That is truly sad! It seems like people are creating gaps between different races. Different people are talking different languages, different ways of living and stuffs. But as for me, in my 19 years of life, i spent it with Chinese, Malays, Indians, Iban, and lots more. Maybe because i was in a kebangsaan school during primary, and i continued in a residential school, which only consists of 90% Malays and 10% others! But i didn’t find any problem with that because.. Erm, i just don’t know. Maybe i got used to them or.. Bleggh!! I don’t know! But when i switched to High School for form 6, most of my friends are Chinese and Indians, and we were very good friends and we are still contacting each other till now!

Okla, not all people are like that, but most of them are! Haha. Sometimes, there are people who got pissed with me because i mix with that particular race, and then when they come and get to know me, they will know that i’m not picky or what.

Last but not least, i liked what Mien said about me in the tagging thingy. Jessica : Amoi yang sangat Melayu. Haha!!

Venue : 54, Jalan SS19/1C, Subang Jaya.

Date : 26th November 2008

Time : 4.45 - 5.00pm

At 4.45pm, the clouds suddenly decided to let the rain down. So, it was seriously raining cats and dogs at the venue mentioned above. Me, washing the cups decided to put Buckie the dog in front. So the accident started from the backyard to the garden in front. Before washing the cups, i spilled some water on the floor. Not much, just like a quarter of the cup. But never mind, because i wiped it earlier so it was not so wet.

Chronology :

Open the front door - Take the leash - Open the back door - Leash Buckie - Take him to the front - He doesn’t want to go out - He ran inside - Turned around me - The leash melilit on one of my index finger - Buckie continued running - My finger nearly cut off - I try to unlilit the lilitan while that * dog continued running - He ran super fast - He ran towards the stairs - I lost control lalu terjatuh macam nangka busuk while being dragged by the dog - The dog ran on top of me - I slapped his butt - I draged him out of the house and leash him out there and let him be alone and and and let him be wet!

Wargh! My butt and arms are seriously painful! My finger lagila jangan cakap. But not as pain as my arms la. If i didn’t unlilit the lilitan, i can say bye bye to my index finger already! Argh~ I am seriously super pissed off. My arms surely will blueblack punya. Thanks to the stupid dog.

The End.

1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?

Adnin? Got to know him middle of this year, and am close with him till now. What’s our relationship? Good friends that i can always count on!

2. Your 5 impressions towards him/her

1. Si comel yang dangerous!

2. Shorter than me (tiru his jawapan..)

3. He adores coffee especially Gloria Jeans and Oldtown!

4. He likes to help people..

5. And he likes to ‘give surprises’ aka mainkan Daryl!

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you.

He drew me a pink piggy on his sejarah note book and mms-ed it to me during class time. At that moment, i was smiling so widely that i can’t concentrate in class. A few days after that, he drew me a Caprisheepandapig! Just figure out what is that, and give regard at the photo below. Yea! He gave me a Pikachu too when we were at Oldtown Kopitiam!

This is Caprisheepandapig!

This is the Pink Panda!

4. The most memorable things he/she have said to you?

“Yeah i know how u feel la. But at least you can know which people can be a real friend and which one jz simply go only with their clicks wat? Me and Grace won’t forget you so don’t worry k? Jz as long as you don’t keep yourself more distance from us la :)”

5. If he/she become your lover, you will…

Sayang him so the very much la! That is what a girl will do to her lover anyway! Plus he has been so good to me so why not?

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will…

Just ignore him. That’s all!

7. If he/she become your lover, he/she has to improve on his/her

Height! Hehe.

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is…

I knocked my head some where that i forgot which one is my enemy and which are my besties.

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is?

Be his friend and treat him very good! And get ready every time when he’s gonna gimme stuffs!

10. The overall impression of him/her is…

He’s what a person need as a friend!

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?

Well, firstly is my size of course! I’m sure they’ll think like this : Man.. this girl is huge! Haha. I don’t know bout this but most of my friend used to say/tease me about that. [Dude u know who u are! :P] Friendly i guess, i smiled to everyone in the college, well sometimes people might got disgusted by that! Haha.

12. The character of you for yourself is?

The character of myself? Urm, all i can say that i am an easy going person, and i easily get mad at a person sometimes but i’ll go and say sorry to her/him right away! D’oh! Haha.

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?

The fact to be a big eater who is huge! Haha.

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?

Someone like my eldest sister. She’s pretty, she’s a good sister, she’s a good mother, she has a good son, and she really took/take care of her sisters and family members very very very very well! I love her!

15. For the people who likes you, say something about them.

Thanks for liking me! I can assure u guys that u guys didn’t choose the wrong person to like!

16. Ten people to tag:

1. Noblemien
2. Em
3. Ida Azreena
4. Jaff
5. Hanisah Bell
6. Idzrul Aizat
7. Adelynn
8. Joy
9. Awe
10. Niazurul Fisya, eh Niazurul Syazwan!

17. who is no. 2 having a relationship with?

A friend of my classmate. That girl is from STF. Hehe. I got to know this not from Em himself, i actually saw something in my classmate’s pic so i asked and its so good to be true that this girl are currently with Em.

18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?

A female.

19. If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?

Haha. I don’t think so! They don’t even know each other! But they will be sweet together because Adelynn is a very pretty girl and Nia is a seriously cute guy. Hah!

20. How about no. 5 and 8?

Lesbiano!!

21. What is no. 1 studying about?

Teaching English as Second Language.

22. Is no. 4 single?

Yes. Maybe not because i won’t know if she’s having a relationship with some guys.

23. Say something about no. 6

Fat! Gemuk! But always say me fat! Always make me marah! But he’s a very nice friend of mine. Fat! Always sakitkan my hati. Apa lagi? Always ask me to belanja him whenever i’m with him. But he’ll always be a good friend of mine!

I’m done!!

*Thank God Its Friday!

*Its Friday already..

*Its just Friday..

Hello there people! Yes, tomorrow is Friday and that means i have wasted a week rotting at home. But if we look at the bright side, i still have 6 weeks of holidays! (Ce sera une bonne occasion pour que je puisse etudier pour l’examen. Peut-etre.)  But its freaking boring here at home. I woke up, do breakfast, rot, watch TV, check stuff on facebook, rot, watch TV again, lunch, TV, rot, wait for sisters to come back, dinner, rot, TV, rot, online, rot, sleep (while rotting).

But basically everyone is the same. We planned some outings, we asked for more holidays, but in the end, none of the plannings succeed (maybe 1) and we ended up rotting at home. LOL.

As always, the best parts of the day are when i watch my TVBs. I repeated Moonlight Resonance, The Seventh Day and some episodes of Scoops. I know u guys will surely ask why am i so addicted to TVB, ‘do u think it feels like auntie or housewife? ‘ bla bla bla. Haihz, basically its the same with those people out there who are crazy for television series like Heroes, Smallville, Prison Break, Desperate Housewives, Bawang Merah Bawang Putih.. (come on name me more!) Its just that i like kantonis series more, because most of the dramas are actually related to what happened in Chinese families. U guys out there can try and watch and I say Moonlight Resonance is the best!

Yet, this has nothing to do with TGIF. Haha!

Anybody have any idea what can i do to pass my free times? Gosh.

Hey folks.

Gosh, i just came back from a long walk to Ming Tien (SS24 Taman Megah) for a dinner with Preena, Grace, Adnin, Amy and Sharmyn and it was a very nice dinner with them (although i don’t really have the idea what they were talking about) but seriously i enjoyed eating out with them (especially with Grace because i haven’t been out with her for days).

Then after we came back, Grace and I decided to walk to Oldtown in Bangsar South to have some coffee and lepak2 as we haven’t really sit down and talk to each other since last week. Hehe. Ironic eh? :p But then our harapan hancur-ed because we met Adam, Reva, Nancie and Vimal on our way there at the gate, and they caught us for some chat. Haha! So Grace and i didn’t go to Oldtown but its a very nice night chatting with them there. We sat there till its over curfew, and Madam Maimun saw us there but she didn’t nag or what. She’s just a sweet lady, she let us lepak for about 15 minutes more and then she said : ‘Its time for sleep rite now, and its about to rain, come on lets go and have some rests.’ Gosh she’s so sweet!!

Well then when i went back to my room, my mood actually changed. Its like a whole lot of difference when i’m with those bunch of guys, and when i’m with my course/housemates. The thing is, i prefer so much to hang out with the hype gang (Grace, Adnin, Nancie, Adam, Preena, Amy, Shoggi and all the others) because, they are who i supposed to melekat with because they’re nons, and they understand what i understand. I never have conversations about James Bond with my housemates, i never eat out till supper time with them and i never chat with lecturers like how i did with the hype gang. Sobb2.

And then, to accept the fact that these bunch of nice people are leaving soon really gets me emo! Before getting close to them, i have been mixing with the wrong type of people that gets me on my nerves everytime because they are those type of people who do not know how to care about people’s feelings and stuffs. They are selfish and i am just not apart of them anymore. Gosh. (Sorry to say this but i am supposed to tell out the truth and come clean rite?) Where as, my course/housemates are good and nice, but we don’t really cling to each other, when it comes to some point where we really are different from each other. They won’t understand most of my jokes, and they don’t really know what am i talking about also. Like the scene in Money Not Enough 2 where Ah Hui and his mother was quarrelling about his mother’s memory lost, i can still react the scene with Grace and we’ll laugh about that. U see, i am not trying to make a distance from myself and my course/housemates, but it’s just that sometimes somethings might not be appropriate between us.

Gosh, now i am getting myself so emo because i just don’t want them to leave, but thank God Preena and Adam will be in Marjon so i’ll be able to spend some time with them although its far from Besancon.

I am emo, i know.

Its funny to think that 2009 is coming, because i don’t really hope or wish for the new year to arrive. 2008 has the most inforgettable memories in my life. And i bet, 2009 will be a year where everybody will be leaving for their studies et cetera. And i don’t really like the idea of starting a new year with less friends around. I really don’t like it.

Firstly, the TESL Cohort 5 people are leaving to their desired new study place, and the sad thing is that i just get to know and mix and hang out and lepak with them when the year is about to end. I don’t know how do i feel now, but to be honest, i am emo now. Grace is going to New Zealand, Adnin is going to MacQ, and everyone else. After this no one’s going to Oldtown with me. No one’s going to amjal with me. No one’s going to sit by the side of the road with me and lepak and sembang about James Bond and stuffs! (Yea, that day when the 5 of us - Adnin, Adam, Sharmyn, Naveen, Shoggi were lepak-ing by the roadside there’s this stupid dumbass ran the bike and fed us with smokes. I hope he’l die soon) Argh! Gosh i just hope that they won’t leave or even 2009 will not come. Then not to forget i’m flying to France by September. Okay, this is one of the things that i can’t wait for, but the idea of leaving the family is extremely sad. I am sure i’ll be crying all day because i am so so so far from them. I won’t be seeing Momy and Daddy for almost a year, i won’t be talking face to face with my sisters, and then Ryan! My God! I won’t be playing with Ryan for 3 years! So then, i really have to plan and save money to fly back every Chinese New Year. Man..

Ouh! Not to forget the Cohort 2 people. They’re leaving soon also. I’ll miss the days i play basketball with Durra n Leny, then the eating times together with Shin Yi.

Haihz.

Nevermind la.

Come what may.

It is so near to the end of the year, and the weather is getting hotter and hotter! Well, that is not the main point of my blog today, but since it was super hot during the past few days, i just want to mention it. Haha! Ironic! Ok, classes last week were quite interesting, we only had classes before 10am. After the break, no lecturers came in, and yea, the class started woohoo-ing and huha-ing! Wahahah. So my classmates were free, but i was finishing up my assignments. That is why i am here now blogging my head out! Hahax.

Ok, let’s get back to the point. Recently, there are these series of unfortunate events happening on me, and so i decided to flush them away. But how? Well, remember there’s this saying : If u think u can, u can? I manipulate it to : If u think u’re ok, u’re ok. Then, i read a Buddhist book that says : Your problems are what u made and what u think off. So i analyse it, i rethink and then i came out with something positive. Then, there’s this book entitled The Secret that says : “If you resist, you persist.” And yea, i ended with success!

Premièrement, its about the lecturers bragging us all the time. When i come to think of it again, it’s the responsibilities of the lecturers to nag at their students because they actually cared about them ; and then even though how good a person scored, that does not mean that the lecturers cannot continue to membebel because they are made for that! Right? Haha. Of course there are times we will actually burst out when we are often taken as the victim, but it will be alright, because we will get over it sooner or later. LIKE MY CASE I MENTIONED BEFORE IN MY PREVIOUS POSTS ABOUT MISS TEH! Wahahahaha. Désolée madame. :p

And then, so they happen to talk about relationships and stuffs, there were almost half (or more) people in the class who has/had committed in a relationship. And that included me. I remembered i was in my third former i had a boyfriend, then when i think about it again, it was damn funny! That guy was not quite my type. He was all party and stuff, and i don’t really belong to the havoc type of gang, because i was in the orchestra team. SO THAT WAS WHAT MADE US FAMOUS. A nerd-innocent-orchestra-girl with a strong-tall-rugby-guy is so not a match! Wahaha, but what the heck! We made it however. Eventhough we are different, we have some similarities, as in our likes and dislikes and we were quite ngam. I know what he talks about, and he understands my jokes! Haha. And yea, that was also the time when i don’t really fancy to have handsome boyfriend and stuffs, because i was satisfied with what i got. But now no more okay, i am single now, and i like it! Haha.

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So that is all for now, i still have to catch up on my studies. So toodles everyone!

P/S : My exam (DELF B2) are most probably canceled, and instead of taking it end of this year, we will sit the papers on March next year. Un petit ‘hurray” d’abord…

I just finished watching Moonlight Resonance/Heart of Greed 2, and the show is super duper nice! After watching it, i felt that i become emo suddenly. (Maybe Yu So Chau influenced me! :P) But what the heck, i like it so much.

At times, i used to be mad at things very fast even it is for no reason. But when i come to think of it again, its just a waste of energy to get mad so often. Its very tiring to get mad at the same thing again and again. For instance, i’ll get glummy whenever some people didn’t care about me, like i how i cared for them. This is the consequences of treating people the wrong way. I agreed with u Mash, why do i need to care about their feelings when they don’t even wanna bother mine. Now, i realised that its not worth it to make myself feel bad also. I’ll live my life for me, and i will not live it to satisfy others ANYMORE.

I think i wanna change my life, as in changing my style of doing things, changing my habits, my routine, and stuffs. And myself too, abit, maybe. I find it dreadful to be treated the way i that i don’t like. So now, bye bye haters, hello newers! Wahha!

And yea, i think i am gonna flunk my trial exam next week. Yea, it is next week, and i haven’t even sit down properly and study yet!! This whole 5 days of holidays, i just sat by the laptop and type type type, chat with Kippo, blog, doing stupid things that i regretted doing now, watching tv, TVB-ing, youtubing and stuffs. I am so dead! Not to forget i still haven’t revise any of the real exam’s format yet! Kippo is now killing himself with his final report, but me now, blogging, watching tv, drinking ribena, laughing, thinking what to eat for breakfast tomorrow, planning on when to go and have steamboat with Preena, sms texting, regretting for not following Shin Yi and the rest to Genting, meeting Grace for dinner, bla bla bla. Jessica Ang May Ching! Wake up and hurry to your desk for your homeworks now!!

Oklah, i’m going to do my works first. Then, i’ll be blogging to end the night. Ciao~

today, i broke up with some one i love. it was me who decided
to break the lines, because i can take it no more. i hate the
ignorance, i hate the girls around him. the sad thing is, he
didn’t object this. he replied with small text messages, forwarded
text messages to tie back the lines. but i felt that its not
sincere enough. i usually have a lot to say when this happens.
but this time around, i was dumbfounded by my own action.
will i regret doing this? i doubted that. but i know, without
me, he’ll be as happy as before. my existence or absence
don’t really mean much to him.

dear camel,

i have to let go, let it all off. just accept it that i want to
let go, even though deep in me, i didn’t ever want to. maybe
with this, u can be more free to fly to wherever u want to
without having to care about me anymore. i think its better
for us to be apart from each other. i hope u’ll be happy
with all the things u have now.

take care.

Few months ago, a guy (God knows who) added me in facebook. He said he knew me, and my sister, he was from my previous high school and is now in the same campus as my sister. Hm. So yea, he added my sister also. But the problem is, he keep acting like he actually know me, where i live and stuffs. At first, i thought that he’s just wanting to know his friend’s sister and stuffs like that, cause before this, some of my sister’s friend did ask about me. But the problem is, when i asked my sister, she said that she didn’t know who this guy is, and according to her, that guy said that i am his friend, that is why he added my sister. Haha! Weird guy. So he has been checking out my page, commenting on my photos, long message chain and stuffs. At first, i just melayan, but as time passed, he really got on my nerves. There’s this one photo of mon amie (my girl friend) and he addressed her ‘him’. So this is the akibat off acting like he knew me and my friends when the truth is he knows nothing. (unless he’s stalking)  And he keep commenting about everything in facebook and seriously i didn’t like that. If we know each other its ok with me, but au contraire, i didn’t know a thing about him. Durh~ Stalker!! Kay-poh. So i did some research in his facebook. Actually, this guy, he adds all the cute chicks and made friend with them. Through wall chatting, and stuffs like that. Gosh. Unbelievable. Yea, it is true that we can make friends online, i have a very good old online friend that i am very closed to also, but, its different u know? Haihz. Just a rant anyway. Haha!