Yes, it is a very memorable and sad day for me today. I spent half an hour crying like a child who losts his mom. How come? Yea, how come. 2 of my bestfriends left me for New Zealand today. Grace Lee, a very good friend from IPBA, and Nia, a very very good brother and friend since i was 13.

I’ll miss the dinner times with Grace, the pasar-malam hunting and also the lepak times with her. It is sad to think that we won’t have the chance to do that anymore because we won’t be seeing each other for 3 years, then she will be teaching in some place only God knows when i come back from France. I don’t even dare to think about it. But at least Grace didn’t cry just now so when i sent her off, i controlled my emotion even though i burst out earlier on.

And i’ll miss the times i spent with Nia in Oldtown Kopitiam, McDonalds, bowlings, movies, and everything. I remembered when we were both working in a hotel back in 2006, we were scolded by the manager because we played with the telephone. No, actually we didn’t play the phone, its just that Nia was in the new wing, and i was at the old wing so we just want to meet up for lunch. And there are just so many many more memories that we had together, and its all coming back into my mind!

But when i saw Nia just now, i could not help it but to burst my tears. His parents were so good. We took pictures together, his parents were asking about my studies, and stuffs like that. Being so close with him for 7 years makes me flash back all the times we had together. The quarrels, the eating sessions, the problem solving, and everything. The moment he called me and ask where i am, i became so nervous that i could not stop my heart from beating so fast. At that time, i know he’ll be leaving, and when Fik cried, i can’t tahan anymore. Tears keep rolling on my cheek and i couldn’t stand but to cry.

Later, more and more people are leaving, and i will be leaving too. I hope that all goes well for them, and i will pray that they will always be healthy.

*emo mode*

I keep thinking about my family. Dad will bring us out to search for food when it is breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner or supper time. Mom will cook us so many delicious food when its weekend. We’ll go over to Chey’s place whenever we feel like going because her house is super big. (and there they have lots of snacks too) Erjie, Kor, San Chey and me will go out shopping because that’s what we always do during the weekends.

Here, when i ask someone out, they will always say ok but in the end they didn’t turn up. With dad, we can go as far as we can even though he is tired.

Here, its hard to date people for dinner on time (after Adam and the gang went overseas) because they just don’t bother about other people. With mom, we can always have food whenever we are hungry

Here, sometimes i just feel unsecured because there are alot of weird people around me. At home, i won’t feel that way because i have mom and dad to protect me.

I miss my family…

1. I am worried. I realized that i am not progressing in my studies. I rarely study after classes, i start doing my homeworks and assignments only at night, and i don’t speak much in classes anymore. I feel ashamed.

2. I deleted my Friendster account. I tried numerous time sending message to my friends to acknowledge that i want to delete my account and i want them to email me their messenger id but the web page kept making error. I was mad, so i deleted without any hesitation.

3. Weirdo is a disaster. He won’t stop doing his weird stuff and i really can’t stand sitting beside him anymore. What’s the benefit for humming while the lecturer is in the class, yawning while kissing the table, and more weird stuffs. Come on, stop all that already! Hate it or not, you are the jerkiest among all jerks and i won’t talk to you even if you start a conversation! (I did that already actually)

4. I have a fever and a sore throat, and my voice is slowly fading away. *Catch it back!*

5. I don’t like literature because it is difficult and i have not yet see the benefit of reading literature books without understanding it properly. Besides, we still have not pass our B2 exam yet so why rush on preparing for C1?

6. It really get on my nerves when my message to somebody is not replied. Please understand that everybody has their limited credit to make calls and i am so sure that it isn’t that hard to reply only 1 message or to borrow 1 message from a friend.

7. Hypocrites are all around me but i can’t hate them anymore. All these people are the parts and parcels of my life in college so like it or not, i have to be strong and ignore my feelings.

Imagine, one self can have so many complaints that she/he can ever think of. But in this case, i am not demanding for anything. I just want to let things out because i don’t like sharing my complaints with anybody. In fact, nobody likes to hear them anyways! I know i don’t. This month sure will be quite a bad month for me but i won’t let it last long. I will try my best to build up my confidence and i won’t let other people step on me anymore. I will wave goodbye to those who ignored me, and i will welcome new winds that will share alot of things with me.

I am now hoping for a new and a better day..

“But i’m so gonna miss you.. Sobb sobb..” that is what little Ryan will say everytime he leaves us, his three aunties. And now, little by little, i am learning to speak like how he speaks. Now i am so going to miss home very much.

Can’t help but to think that i will not be in next year’s family photo. Sigh.

I do hope that time will fly faster so that i will come back from France and celebrate CNY again with my dearest family, and celebrate Grandma’s birthday on the 3rd day of CNY. But i do hope that time will fly as slow as it could so that i will not have to part with my family so soon.

To all me friends out there,

Happy Chinese New Year!

Hope you guys will have a great and blasting one this year!

Collect more angpaus,

gather with all your family relatives and friends.

Gamble till you drop, drink till u get tipsy!

Ahahahah!

GONG XI GONG XI!!!

Woke up early in the morning just now, and hoped for the best in today’s presentation. We had both, 1 c’est la presentation de la politique en France, et j’ai expose sur le pouvoir judiciaire, et la suite c’est la presentation qui s’agit de Monsieur Pagnol et son roman intitulé ‘Le Château de Ma Mère’. (The first one is about the politique in France and i had to present about the justice powers, then after that we had to present about Marcel Pagnol, a famous autour who wrote the book My Mother’s Castle.

But it was a ‘suwey’ day for me today! It was so strange that my diaporama went lost and corrupted in some way, and i had to present without any slides! Kadewaleeeee~~~ Ok then so i was blamed for not keeping another copy in any pendrive but hey, how was i to know that only my part will lost that time. Its super weird because ce n’est que mon diaporama qui est perdu!! (only mine lost!) Merrdeeesss!! But eventhough i presented without slides and stuffs like that, i was able to present also. The lecturer said something that lifted my spirit up and up till now, i feel so bersemangat and i will try my very best to improve better and excel! Merci Monsieur Azhar!

“Vous lisez beaucoup, mais je sais bien que vous avez peur parce que votre diaporama est perdu. Mais en comparant les 4 personnes dans ta groupe, vous êtes toujours la gagnante! Comme vous êtes a l’aise dans l’orale, essayez de parler avec une langue assez haute, ça veut dire, utilisez les mots que vous avez chercher et reformuler avec vos propres mots. Comme ça vous pouvez aider vos amis a mieux comprendre. C’est un défi! Brève, ça va!”

(You read the text alot, but i know that you are scared because your diaporama had lost. But comparing you with your friends in the group, you were and always the winner! And since you already are good in orale, try to reformulate the words and the informations you found so that you can help your friends understand better. Its a challenge for you! Briefly, its good!)

Yeap, with this, i have more confidence in myself and i hope i will get the same (infact better!) testimony from him again! I am so happy. Haha!! Not to forget the presentation of Marcel Pagnol during Monsieur Liew’s class. He said très bien too!

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So today, we had a netball tournament and guess what, we lost! Hahaha. Too bad, i don’t know how to play netball, i nearly bounce the ball throughout the game because i am biasa with basketball already! Ahahahahah~ Tant pis la!!

Hi folks. I am so tired at the moment so i’ll just post up a little things that i wish to say, and some photos. Yeap, my birthday was a month ago, but i’m still receiving presents from my loved ones. A few days after i arrived IPBA, Ayn gave me a Bollywood DVD which i never had the chance to watch it because of the pact schedules, then Grace gave me a cute little christmas towel, Adelynn bought a very beautiful bracelet, Idzrul with a nice bag, Che Nad, a little pink plushie and last but not least, Atikah gave me a very big Kungfu Hustle lollipop which i shared with almost everyone in the cafe in block 4.

A christmas towel from Grace,

A bracelet from Adelynn,

A Wild Channel bag from Idzrul,

A cute pinkish smily plushie from Che Nad,

Group photo of a farewell gathering for Che Nad, my basketball mate.

Thanks to all of them so much, it has been really nice having them around and it is a great jo to have known a bunch of friends like them.

The first day of the new term doesn’t seem to go on that well. I actually felt a little disappointed, hearing all the stuffs that we had to face now and in future, and some people doesn’t seem to move forward with better spirit and better attitude. Even me who don’t really have any new year resolution, i decided that i will do my best in everything, studies, social, and stuffs like that. However, in class wise, the lecturer welcomed us with wide hands open, happily, but not hesitating to give us more works because they knew well, we, the students spent the holidays with all the leisures and rests and i bet, everybody had benefit something from the long holidays.

But the drastic changes is one of the most scariest and i can say, unpleasing to all students. (At least i am) I realised that students of all IPG are obliged to follow the rules in this Akta 174. The student affairs department will be restructured and the new ones will be the officers from the ministry it self. What i hope for this time is that, they will do their very best to provide all the relevant needs of all students. And i would very much like if they are not racist like the previous ones, where for them, skirts below knees are very short and obscene. Haha!

As you all know (if you have been reading my blog since the very start), i am famous for my ‘bodoh sombong’ nickname even though i am not that bodoh or not that sombong, hehe . But surprisingly, I’ve been elected as the assistant of the class, and i would like to thank my classmates for giving me this opportunity even though i don’t really like it. I don’t think i can give my all to be a good assistant, and i admit, i am a lazy girl. I don’t feel like i deserve to get this post, because of my self, who likes to protest and argue the upper ones.

Whatever is it, i just hope that this new terms won’t be that hectic, busy and stuffs like that, because my mates and i will be having exams on the March and so automatically we all will be busy even without homeworks or assignments. (and i am blogging now, :p)

So, till then, see you guys in my next post!

My new year resolution :

I don’t have any serious ones, because i never achieve any success with this resolution thingy. I remembered, last year i was so desperate on losing weight, not spending more money on foods and useless stuffs, not to get involved with any lovey dovey thing, bla this and bla that. But in the end, those were all dreams, hopeless dreams, and history! I ended up gaining more weight, eating good food, buying useless stuffs which i can’t even remember where i placed them, and all that are seriously childish! So now, i decided that i won’t and i really won’t do any resolution! No way! To those who did this and wanted to repeat on planning a resolution again, i wish you guys good luck, and stay firm!

What I’m gonna do is just to continue what i am doing currently, which is to finish my foundation year and say bye bye to my ‘guru’. Spend more time with family is a must but that depends on my schedule also. How i wish next year’s class will not be that hectic and busy like this year’s so that i can spend more time doing other things maybe like looking for a part time job? Haha. (If only wishes can come true..)

So here, i would like to wish everyone a…..

Happy New Year 2009!

Hello readers.

Holidays is really really coming to an end, and seriously i am hating it! Oh my. It has been like what, 5 weeks since i left the college and i will have to go back next week! That is freaking fast! Yeah, time flies when you’re having fun right? But i didn’t had enough fun! Warghh!! (bang my head on the table 3X)I was so anticipated for the holidays back in November, and now, everything has vanished. Lawrence’s wedding is over, my birthday is over, Christmas is over, now what, waiting for New Year? That means like waiting for the college to re-open!

Whatever is it, i had fun in my hometown this December, i really really do. (despite of some sad feelings i had so oftenly that i have to pretend nothing ever happened) This month, i used quite a lot of money, shopping for Chinese New Year clothes, wedding accesories and shoes, movies, and so much more. But i still miss lepak-ing with Adam, Reva and Adnin in Oldtown, Grace to Ming Tien, and when i come to think that they won’t be around anymore next year, i actually got a little bit emo. Haihz. Will miss Grace super much la.

Anyways, again, i am so anticipated for the Chinese New Year next January. It’s like 4 more weeks and then its ‘Xing Nien’ (Mandarin for New Year) already! Wahoo~~~ I hoped there will be some cuti peristiwa for 1 week, and guess what, yes indeed!! Haha. But believe me, its a little bit weird. Look at this!

What’s the motive of having Ahad as a cuti peristiwa yang tidak perlu ganti, when Sunday is already a public holiday? So from my interpretation, Sunday is still the public holiday of the week, and so the cuti peristiwa is taken to Friday. And so, WE ALL WILL HAVE A WEEK FULL OF HOLIDAYS TO ENJOY OUR XING NIEN!!!! Wahooooo~ But this is my interpretation. We won’t know what will happen because, yea, we just won’t know. Just wait and see!

Till then, let us pray for the long holidays shall we?

Bye!