Uwa uwa uwa.. I miss my buckie. I miss him licking my hand when i wanna leash him. I miss him biting my fingers when i wanna unleash him. I miss his bulu. I wanna pet pet his head. Tsk tsk. I really really miss him.

Should i go back next February? Financial wise, memang enough wan. If i really want to go back, it will cost me around 1000 euros for flight, trains, souvenirs, and pocket money for me to spend in Malaysia. I have that. The problem is when i compare to a one week holiday in UK or somewhere, it might be cheaper than that 1000 euros, probably 50% from that amount. If i go back to my hometown, i can meet my loved ones, i mean, all of them. But then when i think again, i will balik again during the semester break in June/July. So what’s the point going back so many times and wasting so much money? Thing again and again. If i tak balik, i won’t be in the family photo. Ahhh!! That’s a nightmare ler!! Haihz. But sometimes, not everyone gets to get in the family photo. Take Yiang as an example, she was always away in Australia, and there are several years where she didn’t come back for CNY. But that’s another story because her father is super rich, like richer than Brunei king, so.. Hurm. I kinda need opinions now. I have super lots of friends in UK, my neighbour’s daughter is in UK, and my mom’s bestfriend’s daughter is in UK too. So i might as well visit them and celebrate CNY together? They might have super lots of celebrations in UK compared to France because, yea France just don’t celebrate asian traditions, so. Hurm. I don’t know. Me needs opinion.

Hey there.

Heehee. I am finally in France now. Besancon is the place. Here, unlike Penang or Kuala Lumpur, the buildings are very antique and somewhat, creepy. Look at the photos i posted on Facebook, and u shall know. I miss the contemporary batiments in KL and Penang, even houses in Penang are nicer than here. But, please do take note that flowers in Besac are much nicer, bulkier, prettier and more colorful. I can never find red flowers in my hometown, even hibiscus can’t breed for long!

Classes will start next week. Last Monday, we (my friends and i) sat for the TCF (Teste de connaissance de francais) exam, and tomorrow the result will be out! Yeehaw! I wonder which class will i get? With whom will i be? Will the schedule be pact? What time will the class start and end? Oh my goodness. I just can’t wait for the classes to start, at least i don’t have to get sucked in this boring life in my studio, sitting in front of the laptop alone! Haha. *complaincomplain* And i hope that our documents will be settled before October starts. Well, important things like the titre de sejour (ID), student card, bank card, train card and stuffs like that are definitely vital it must be settled before the next holiday because i want to go to Germany and meet Sharan! Weehee!

Ahh! I was away a while just now. A China girl just moved here, and she’s staying opposite my house! Hee! A good start to find a foreign friend huh? When i was lingering around the college last Monday, there are a few China students who greeted me in Mandarin and asked, are u China people? (in Mandarin of course) Everyone knows my Mandarin is “mama-tay” (so-so) only, but at least, i can speak and understand what they were trying to say. Jay Chou! Hehee!!

I wonder how would life be, tomorrow and the following days. I always feel like something is missing, something is not right. God knows. Maybe i should see for myself, what is wrong. And maybe try to make it right. Can i? I doubt that well! Hurm. Perhaps things are not complicated as it may look like, but i prefer to stick to my perception and just do what am i supposed to. Look, from the very start, i already knew that we may never stick like how we used to stick, during our foundation year. Imagine, one can be so close with another one, when she used to talk behind that other person. How hypocrite! And then one can be so harsh to the other one, when last time she depended on the other one so much! Haihz. Life’s like this huh? I see it, and i thank God i don’t have to be in it.

Its 11.18pm now, and 5.18am in Malaysia. Hee. I feel like sleeping, but at the same time i feel like eating because i am hungry now. Haha! Anyways guys. See u in my next post! Have a nice day there!

Who is Mrs Tan?? Hahaha.. She’s my sister!! Getting registered on the 19 of September (i am not going to be there. =.=”) The whole wedding dinner process was superb, and the hengdais and chimuis are the best!! Haha.

Actually, i wanted to post this up like, a day after the wedding night, but i just couldn’t because i went to BTN, and then i forgot totally about updating my blog. Seriously i stamped a lot of the “post it” note paper on the wall about updating blogs and photos, but d’uh. I kept of forgetting!!!! Hahaha, and then, now.. since i posted super lots of photos in my previous posts, i will, keep on posting and posting! Hehe. Yea, new camera mah. Thanks to my Lumix!

Ok, so here are some photos!!

The chimuis and the married couple!

Erjie & Chey Chey!

The best food of all because i only get to eat this one!!!

San Jie (yang dah mabuk :P) Me, and Ah San Ko! (brother in law no.1 - haha.. must put ranking wan.. nanti tersilap :P)

Erjie & Me!!

Lengjie, Erjie, Sanjie & Me!

San Jie, Chey Chey, Me & Momy!

Auntie Connie!! And Jennifer beside me!

My beloved daddy and mommy! So happy..

Pour champagne.. pour pour..

Haha! :P Me & Cute Jon! Why do i look so happy?

Presenting, the Chimuis & Hengdais!!

Haha. So, pictures say it all right? It was really a happy and meaningful day, and i can’t wait to celebrate more! Haha. Ehem, who’s next in line huh?

Hello everybody.

First and foremost, i would like to explain about the relationship thingy on facebook few days ago. I was actually helping a friend who got stalked by a girl. So yes. I was helping only. I am single, and would stay single at least for the rest of the days left in 2009. :p

U guys knew about my sister’s wedding last week? It was really a fun one, because i get to meet all my close relatives, before i leave for France. It was so ngam! I met the Supreme Garden neighbors, neighbor’s son who used to take me out to the playground and treat me to yummy ice creams, friends i played with when i was little, the sam-ku-lok-bho (aunties), my godparents and godbrother,  my dad’s friends whom i last met them like 10 years ago, (and they still can remember me ), my cousins, and everybody!  Not to forget the “chengku” and games during the morning itself. Those guys had to drink some weird drinks before they can enter the house; and they had to do 5 times pumping, on a plate of whip cream; dancing to ice ice baby with silly moves like shaking their bottom, MJ moves and ballerinas; speaking hokkien (only Cylan and Oliver know how to speak hokkien, btw.) with my mom and dad to ask them for corsages, and those guys had to tie the hand corsages on the chimuis them selves! Haha. I got ah Keong, but his other half was there too, so, haha! No jealousy! The good thing is that, tomorrow, we are having the same thing again, because my sister actually wanted to do both sides, as her hometown was in Penang and her friends from KL couldn’t make it. So she decided to do another session in KL, and i bet, it will be as fun as the one we had in Penang! More chengkus! More hengdais! More evil chimuis! More angpaus!!!!

So yea, i have been spending a lot of time with my family, but my friends in IPBA, sorry la. I tried contacting you guys to fix a date for my farewell party, but no body seems to be bothered about it. As usual, my text messages were ignored, so i think i would not do a party in IPBA. Too bad la, i wanted to have 1, but i was ignored, especially ignored by the ones i used to be so close with! And, that is sadistic! I was actually quite emo for a while, when i kept thinking of why they never wanted to text me back, at least, reply to my messages or what. One word, sadistic!! I was disappointed, but this is not the first time. I felt like i’ve been crossed out of his life or what, he thinks that i don’t exist anymore. Ugh. It sucks, BIGTIME!

But i will have 1 in Subang, and i think my sisters will call people like Jason n Munyee, Jeffrey, Damien, Cyrus, Lengjie, Oliver, Cylan and more of them. And i will personally invite my good sisters, Esther, Jessica, Audrey, Lindsay, Shakina, brothers like Alvin, Justin, Harold and others too! And then, me and the juniors will be having a big eating session (last eating session, i mean) in Ming Tien. Yippee!

I really can’t wait for tomorow, and i hope everything will go on well! Then next week, i will be leaving for BTN, which i don’t really want to, and 1 of the reason why is that i do not want to skip CF next week!! Mince!! Then, two weeks after that, i will be gone from IPBA for good. I will be just, gone! Theeheeheehee!!!

So i’ll see you guys in a week okay. With more updates! Take care and have a wonderful week ahead!! Goodbye!

I am so disappointed!! Harry Potter wasn’t supposed to be a funny movie, well, at least, if they wanna add a little bit of humor they shouldn’t have made the entire movie funny! Maybe 1/4 is enough! Could it be because of David Yates as the director that Harry Potter turned out to be this way? No, it doesn’t make any sense! The screenplay writer is always Steve Klove, which means, he knows the perfect way to maintain the story line like how it used to be best.

For me, this movie usually starts with a quest, and how Harry succeed it. On top of that, love scenes were always original, in the sense that the affections were natural, real, and somewhat linked. As we can see, in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, how Cedric and Harry were in love with Sho, but it ended up with Cedric dying in front of Harry and Sho grieving about it. And how sad Ron was, when he saw Hermione going out with another guy. But, in the latest movie, Ron, was with Lavender Brown, whom never existed in any of HP movies. She started to kiss Ron, and she did crazy things to show her affection towards Ron. It is not original. And since when the term ’snogging’ is appropriate in it? And not to forget, the funny scenes which got on my nerves. Sorry, too much, of funny scenes. Hello, -You-Know-Who- is back, its not a laughing matter right?

Anyways, the characters played their roles well, i can say. Harry with his charming looks, Hermione, always being the intelligent one, and Ron, the annoying boy. However, the problem is, i can feel like something is missing in this movie. I bet they have cut a lot of parts from the book that might be the key parts to lead us to the next series. The simple fact is that, there are more comedies instead of actions in Half Blood Prince, which is not normal. Gosh. I will have to read the book, i am going out tomorrow, and i will get the book.

I do think that the movie is good and enjoyable, but i do think that Harry Potter is not a masterpiece anymore with Half Blood Prince too. Its too bad. Poor J.K. Rowling.

U guys have to see for yourself, and tell me if i’m right or wrong.

Today, me and my friends went to Alamanda Putrajaya to spend some time because staying in SSP is really stressing and boring. So, Iqa’s friend brought us out of the dungeon and at last, i watched 17 again. A very good movie, but just that the young Mike O Donnell (Zac Efron) is way too hot than the older Mike. Haha!

And yea, went to have some pizzas in Pizza Hut, and something came up my mind. Its about a friend (i had a crush on a year ago), and where Pizza Hut Alamanda is the first place we hang out in 2007. So i called him and actually wanna tell him about that and i hope his response would be like.. “wah, really ar? what are u doing there?? ee, missing our old timesla, blablabla”. (gedik kan? biarlah!) But, no. Haihz. It is so pathetic of me. Why pathetic? Let’s say if this happened with my besties, (Nia, Midi, Pikah, Ida, Ridzuan) if i called them, we would speak more than 30 minutes. (Crapping and flashing back) Seriously! Contohnya, there was once, at Pizza Hut Megamall Pinang, Nia was not really comfortable with the chair in the restaurant, so he wanted to pull the chair like how we did when we’re sitting on a plastic chair. Remember? But chairs in PH are attached on the floor, so, lawak la kan sebab Nia tarik kerusi yang tak boleh ditarik? Aish. So hard to describe la because hang tak dak kat sana, so hang tak merasa la! Tibe. Gedik. Haha! Look, this is how i crap with my friends okay, so i think nobody else will understand the way we talk and stuffs. Ada lagi contoh lain sebenarnya, pada suatu hari, my school’s band troup is going outside the school for a rehearsal practice somewhere, so Ayu (ex-band) pun tanya la, “ramai ke yang pergi?” Aku pun jawab, “eh tak ramai pun. Yang pergi, budak brass, woodwinds dengan percussion je pun.” Then, Ayu pun cakap, “oh, takde la ramai sangat pun.” Haha! Lawak lah! Budak brass dah termasuk budak trumpet, euphonium, horn, tuba, trombone, dan bagai. Kalau dah sebut brass woodwinds dgn percussion, maksudnya satu band la! Ha! See, u guys won’t understand. Yang aku pulak bengong. It happened again in Megamall’s Pizza Hut. Midi and Nia were talking about Ayu, and i wasn’t paying attention. Suddenly, i said. “Weh, ingat tak kejadian Ayu tu, blabla” Haha!! Padahal, depa baru ja habis cakap pasal Ayu. Malu la gila kan aku time tu? Motif aku ulang kan. Kantoi tak dgr apa yg depa cakap. Haha! Hang tengoklah pah….

Ish. So like i said, nobody would understand this conversation. But having the chance to be friends with this great people, i am so thankful to God. Even though i’m a chinese, they never treat me like alien or what. They treat me like a part of their family. So sangat best la kawan dengan depa nih! Sigh. I really am missing the moments with them, hanging out at the cantine eating dadih, practicing, gossiping, Nia hitting my hand, Hamidi laughing kehkehkeh sound, and drinking coffee with Ida. Sobbing~ Actually there are alot more stories with them, all our sweet memories together. I don’t know whether u guys are laughing a not while reading the jokes up there. But i guess not. Please tell me if u do. Haha!

Ok, this is the last lame joke for today. Last few weeks, i was watching the gems of life, and there were some funny scenes, so i told Midi lah. One of them is : There was a lady, named Constance and she was hired by a Japanese establishment. One day, she won a prize for the best necklace design. So, the Japanese boss went to see her to congratulate her and stuffs like that. The boss went with 2 translators, because Constance does not understand Japanese. While he was talking, the lady kept lowering her head, as a sign of polite. When he was about to finish his speech, he said to the lady, “gambateh!” And then both of the translators also told her “gambateh”. The funny thing was, she repeated “gambateh” to her boss and the translators because she didn’t know what “gambateh” means. Lawak tak lawak tak? I found it super funny lo, and i laughed like crazy in my room. Hah!!!! Got somemore!! In this show, there’s this guy named Derrick, and he doesn’t know a single English word. But, he was in love with Constance but since he doesn’t know how to pronounce English words, instead of Constance, he called : Konsiten~~! Arhhh! Konsiten!! Hahaha.. Sangat baku okay!

Sangatlah sedih. Tapi sangat lawak! Ish. I don’t know lah. Midi called me earlier just now. As usual, when we talked on the phone, we will laugh like crazy. Because we are crazy. Sigh. Hm, takpo. Like i said earlier, i was actually trying to create the same kind of relation with the friend i mentioned just now. But he is just not that type of guy. What to do right. Sedih. Maaf Midi, aku telah memberatkan hang dengan cerita aku yang tah papa. Wahah. Konsiten betul. Maaf, i will never try to be the same May Ching with that friend like how i have been with u guys. Seriously. (Tibe)

Maybe i am too bored.

No, not maybe. I am bored!

Oklah, will blog later next week. Have to prepare some lesson plans for tomorrow in case i need to teach. Ah, teaching is stressing. Seriously! Toodles! Miss ya! Goodbye! Aufwiedersehen!

Hello everyone!!I am back to blogging!! But not for long, i am back to Subang to wash some clothes, because there’s a huge water and toilet problem in my hostel, so since i have the chance, i decided to come back and cuci. Then Saturday morning, i’ll be back to my hostel and go lepak with, er, who wants to lepak???

Guess what, i checked in the calender today, and i was so surprised to see that i only have 20 more days left in IPBA!!! (Is that a hurray or a cry?) Well, a part of me is sad, but another part of me is so happy to be gone for good! My classmates will be going with me, so it wouldn’t make much differences also right, that is why partly i am not that sad to leave. But i will be missing my oldfriends, those who spent a lot of time with me when i was bored. (Id, i really need to pay Ikea a visit with u again, and have soya bean and cookie with u… Jaf, miss the days with u, especially our eating session in pizza hut penang. ur mom would always give me a lift… and the list goes on and on..)

And i haven’t finish buying my stuffs yet! Just now i went to Universal Traveller to check on some things, and i saw ear muffs! They were so cute! I wanted to buy, but my sister said that she can get some for cheaper price because her friend’s mom works in a retailer. So, i can get 3 earmuffs! Purple, blue and pink! (do i need that much? or its considered little. ahha! don’t care! :P)

Sigh. I will be leaving for SBE from this Monday till Friday. Oh, SBE (school-based experience) is just an observation session, not teaching yet. Hehe. I will be staying in the school itself, with three of my classmates, and the school is in Cyberjaya. Sekolah Sri Puteri. I went there for several times already when i was in my secondary school. Went there for the Wind Orchestra Competition, and i can say that this SSP school is very big and beautiful. Clean, modern, easy, and hot! Haha!!

Ok, now, i am going to talk about MJ. I never imagined that MJ’s death would leave a great impact on me. I never met him before, never been to his concert, never shook hands with him, blabla.. But, i felt his presence around me. When i woke up early morning, the first thing i think about is MJ. When i listen to his songs, i will cry. Sigh. I wonder how long will this take me to chill myself.

Allright guys, i better make a go now. I really need to sleep, because, i’m sleepy. D’uh! Will be back next week with some great stories about SBE, i hope! Wish me luck! See ya!

Yes dearies, i kena FFK (Fong fei kei) again. Today, twice. First, was a movie date with some friends, which end up a soap-drama marathon in my room.  But it was still ok because he texted to remind me that the movie is not on because he had some very important stuffs to do. Second, was a trip to Midvalley for some stuffs-hunting since my another friend cancelled the movie session. And the thing is, that fella can’t make it too because of some boyfriend stuff, but she didn’t tell me that she can’t go out, so there i was, getting ready, waiting for her butt to come in my room for an hour. Then i texted her to ask, is she going or not, and she didn’t reply. I was, as usual very pissed. I changed my clothes, and i went straight on my bed to continue my soap drama and some studies while cursing. Stupid right. If u can’t make it, u should tell earlier, or u will end up getting cursed by me. Padan muka. Then i texted her again at 6.30 to tell her honestly that i think she’s a little bit terrible to have left me hanging alone without reminding me. I hate it when this happens. =.=”

So my mood swung. I went down to Scud to see some friends, but i wasn’t smiling, i wasn’t talking, i wasn’t having fun like i always did. Its not like i want to show everyone my colere, but, yea. This won’t be cool for anyone either, right.

Sighness. I am, still mourning for Michael Jackson. RIP, MJ.

Yesterday, i asked: “what could be worse than today?” And this morning, i woke up and heard the news about Michael Jackson, i closed my head and refused to get up. And i thought, today, is worse than yesterday.

It was a very shocking news for me, very. I didn’t know about his cardiac problem, and i never knew that he would pass away at the age of 50. I had always wanted to go to his concert, and since i am going to Europe, i wished he would be able to throw a concert in UK/France or wherever in Europe, and i will certainly be there to watch him singing, dancing and moon walking. Sadly, now i will not have any chance for any concert anymore! Sigh.

And at this moment, i can’t still accept the fact that the coolest and shiniest singer left the world. Michael Jackson is such a legend and his songs are the best! I started to listen to his songs since i was small okay, because my parents and my sisters are all fans of Michael Jackson, and it is impossible for me to not to like him because its in the blood. I can sing his songs, and i can dance Thriller. On top of that, he was, a very talented singer, and the best pop singer of the world!

Sigh. I am so sad. I wanted him to stay alive. I wanted to see him and shake hands with him. I wanted to hear him singing in front of me. I want to go to his funeral.

“Did u have to go? And leave my world so cold”

Rest in peace, Michael. You will always be in my heart and nobody can ever replace you, King of Pop.

Today, we lost the world’s most legendary King of Pop, the greatest entertainer and musician in all hearts.

Its 11.50pm, ten minutes till midnight. And why am i even telling about the time when i know when i publish this entry on my blog, it would be 12.30am or maybe 2.30am already.

So what did i do during the 6 free days? I promised myself that i would relax, but working, at the same time. But i just didn’t. I have been working on useless craps, like watching the same movie over and over again, taking afternoon naps even though i never feel tired like i were during college days. I have never go out town since then. And i have been trying to blog, numerous time, but something kept me away from posting it. So u can see, i have 18 drafts, since last Sunday. Awkwardness.

Today was quite an interesting day, or yesterday, because its already 5th of June now. I spent the whole day reading a new book, or e-book, (whatever u call that). A book which i planned on buying it when i drop by any bookstore, but i got it in ‘e’ version, thanks to a very good friend of mine. At least, i claim he’s one of the very good friends i have, yes, i claimed.

I loved the book. I’m on my way to Chapter 13 now. Just to acknowledge.

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Its a total weirdness when i was so anticipated to go back to my hometown, when there’s nothing much that i could do here. Because i can’t really talk to anyone. Sigh. But i do love staying at home, with family. Its just that, i needed some one that i could confide in. I really do. And i am so thankful to have this senior who will always work with me whenever i feel like i had something to spill out. I am grateful that the internet works, but i know it wasn’t enough. I needed something more. Anyways, i should say, thanks for being there for me.

What is the matter with me? I couldn’t seem to find myself the way i want me to be. What the hell?

Will be blogging for more maybe next time. I wanted to blog, but i am blanked now. I was actually waiting for someone to share something, but since it is going to be an absence, i might as well get my feet off the ground and start dreaming. Till then, adios, and good night.