Here goes my rantings and crapping. I don’t want to label myself stupid, or anything negative because, i don’t want others to think that i have low self esteem. But, sometimes, i just, do feel like that.
Few days ago, i did something, without thinking deep about the consequences. Things that no body will want to be proud of doing, and things that some people might not do it maybe because of them not being brave enough. But that doesn’t mean that what i did was not right. Wrong, in the sense of rules and regulations. Curious, and naive, i was. And the consequences, were from what i did and what i brought myself into. What i wanted and what i got, contributed to the tears i have shed. No, it was not your fault, and i will never blame you. I am sorry to tag you along in this trouble somehow, but i am certain you do feel something for what you have done anyway. Impoverished experience, i never expected that it can mean more than just what i thought. You are right in certain subject, but sorry to say, from my perspective, you are absolutely wrong in some ways. Anyhow, i will not blame you.
Nonetheless, i cannot pretend that nothing has happen, neither can i let go of it. I am known for my sensitive side, and i can never forget things easily. Up till this moment, i still browse your page and your photos even though i feel the blues and melancholies when i saw them. I still can feel the glumness, but i hope its not for long.
Now that i knew, i will be cautious. Extra conservative. Thanks to you, i finally realize how foolish i was, yet, at the same time, i gained something important.
Experience is worthy, anyhow.
And they are worth to be learned.
