Another post about my incredible trip! This one, a very impromptu weekend trip to a place called Colmar. (They have the artificial one in Bukit Tinggi called Colmar Tropicale, and hell, the original one is definitely more epic!)

So last Friday, I didn’t have class so I went to Hamzah’s place as Faris was there too. We hung out and went drinking at La Viennoise; bought some candies at this candy shop just across the road while having a very neat conversation with the boss about Air Asia; the moments in the pharmacy; and then went walking until the sushi place for a sushi dinner. So, yeah. Very impromptu, came out the idea of me going to Belfort with Hamzah because he asked, and I was like, “Can I invite Sarah?” and they said yes. So after the sushi, I went home and met Sarah and we talked about the plan to Belfort. (and lots more other topics too, )

The next day, we woke up at 6am, walked up to the train station and began our journey to Belfort. The train ride was sweet (I love train rides) now instead of being alone and doing all the thinking, Sarah and I talked, talked all the way from Besancon till we reached Faris’s place. About everything, about how annoyed I am with this particular useless being, and all. Hehehe! So as we reached 16 Rue Scheurer Kestner, rang the doorbell, saw the guys, they got prepared, and we stood down on the dining table and started planning on where we should go. From wanting to go to Strasbourg to taking the risk to go to Basel without passport, from taking the risk to planning to go to Freiburg at the German border. Packed our bags, walked to the train station, took the train to Colmar to then take the bus to Freiburg. So yeah, as usual, lots of good conversations in the train!

Faris & Hamzah

Sarah & Me

We reached Colmar, and we went around taking photos till we got really really hungry. And yeah, we saw my high school junior Cha’On and we even asked him the way to the chinese buffet restaurant! Haha! I know like we should have went to a typical french restaurant to have the regional meal there but no we didn’t!! Buffet was amazing especially the raviolis, oh my god I really want to go there again!! (No worries, they can never beat Malaysian food anyways, haha!) As we were eating, we figured out that we can never make it to the bus station to take the bus to Freiburg, and even if we did have time, we won’t make it back to Belfort either. So we decided to stay in Colmar, see the architecture, take picture, laugh, have fun, and eat frizzy pazzy! Hehehe.

These are how the buildings in Colmar look like! Most of them are made from tough wood, they are colorful and really really stiff! I wonder how can they stay so stable for so long! And that little river there, it’s called La Petite Venice! Well, we don’t have to go to Venice to see the river and the Gondola, we were actually at one now!!

I am really really glad to have went on this impromptu trip. Most importantly, I really love how we can see and learn so much things from each trip we go to, like in this trip I learnt that Franklin Roosevelt was a very important person during his time. I learnt how to like some songs I’ve previously decided to neglect, and I learnt how to enjoy our life better. And of course, the pictures taken symbolize the memories we had during the trip. I will never forget how I got hooked to Katy Perry’s Firework, thanks to Hamzah, the song stayed in my head the whole day and every now and then I would start singing : “Baby you’re a firework” or “Have you ever feel, like a plastic bag” and I think I’ve sang this too : “Baby you’re a plastic bag”! Hahaha!

And, not to forget, I learnt how to prepare delicious food!!

Faris’ super yummy and spicy vegetarian pasta!!

The superb caesar salad!!

And last but not least, the so called chocolate fudge cake!! How I love the melted runny chocolate!!!

When we reached Belfort, we went to L’eclerc to get groceries to prepare our dinner! An awesome dinner after the tired day trip to the prettiest medieval town in France!

Went back home the next day, and finished 17 chapters from that Eat Pray Love book, so that leaves me with 71 more chapters to go!! I hope I can finish it when riding the train from Besancon to Lyon this time, with Sarah! Wednesday is gonna be a day for us! Only us!

Today is, indeed, a very special and nice day. In so many ways, believe me.

The itinerary was : I woke up at 6am, went to the bathroom for a shower, and heat up my breakfast and made a cup of coffee. While waiting for my food to be prepared on the stove, I switched on my laptop to check everything essential for my trip to Paris. The time, the map, which subway to take, which stop to stop at, at what time, stuffs like that. And then, I reached for my phone and called a friend, making sure that she’s up too for her weekend trip to Barcelona. Finished my food and my coffee, changed my clothes, packed my bag, and I was ready to go.

In the train.

I always loved voyages by train, I especially love how the lonely moments in train I can profit to do stuffs that you will never really get or have the time to do : reading, thinking, reminiscing (well you can do that on the bed tossing and turning while waiting to dive in a deep sleep). I recently bought these books from Amazon.co.uk, and I brought one of them with me, (Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert). I know they made a movie out of this book, and I heard that it’s amazing. But how can a chick flic be amazing? Starwars is amazing, Spiderman is awesome. Chick flics? For me they are the movies that will not stay long in my head. And however autobiographical they can be, they are chick flics! All lovey dovey, unreal. Not all of them, of course. But yeah.

So I read the book in the train, finished 20 chapters (they have 108 chapters in it) on the way to the most romantic town in the world, Paris.

And the reading made me think a lot. About the time I spent, what kind of stuffs I do in the past, stuffs like that. Simply reminiscing and plain thinking at the same time. Especially on how fortunate I am to be able to live in France without having to ask a single cent from my parents. I am not trying to be a snob, but I seriously appreciate what I have now, and I do never want to let this chance go. I know that I will be complaining like hell, the day I have to leave this lovely country and knowing that the chance of ever going back again is like, looking for a goldfish in the valley of piranhas. (I am definitely exaggerating.) Hehe.

And looking back at all the things I’ve done in the past, I know very well that I was a terrible person. To be honest, I really was. And I regretted for it but I know it’s ok, as long as I realize and I do my best to change. And I promised myself that I will surely change to a better person, I want to be a very sophisticated and significant woman in the future, I want my parents to be so proud of me despite my wrong doings in the passé.

See, sitting by your own self in the train can make you think so much! (“,)

Another thing I feel lucky is : I am 21 years old, and I am a free bitch. I go wherever I want, I do whatever I want, with whoever I want to. This is life! Somebody at my age would think that having a boyfriend by yourself to accompany you and to hug you when you feel cold and stuffs is the best thing you will ever want to have in this age. Well I would want that to happen too, but maybe in 5-10 years? I would be lying if I say I don’t want to be in a relationship. I do want that, but not in the nearest time. Until I found the right person at the right time, I’m happy. (hint : I want an older and matured man, working, and not complicated). I don’t demand for a fancy guy!

Ok enough about my thoughts while in train.

So when I reached Paris, I went straight to the subway and took the metro to the buffet place, Panda Wok. Met up with new friends, which was super awesome, and also met up with a pregnant senior, she will be delivering her baby next month! And she is 26. I really respect her for even at young age, she’s matured and motherly. I can never handle babies myself, in fact I haven’t! But the idea of being a mother is very noble, and happy. She told me how the baby will kick and move in the womb, and I kinda felt a sudden jealousy because I know her married life is a perfect one : she is an angel and her husband is a very good man. I envy them!

Kak Asma’, the pregnant mommy!

After finish eating, the guys from my place and I went to Champs Elysees to shop. Well I didn’t buy anything because it must be crazy to buy stuffs from there, I’m depending on my allowance and I’m not working yet so I must not spend on branded stuffs like how a rich man daughter can spend on a Louis Vuitton handbag. (a 70% discounted Louis Vuitton bag can still cost around 300€, around 1300MYR). So instead of looking at stuffs I can not afford to buy, 2 of my friends and I went to my most favorite place in the world : Starbucks. Back in Malaysia I will spend on Starbucks even though the price of a cup of frap is double the price of a set meal. (I’m exaggerating again, but this time not too much). I don’t care! I love Starbucks and I know it loves me too because I pay them!

Louis Vuitton Boutique, not a place for me! (Yet)

My precious and favorite Java Chip Frappuchino!

The 1 thing I didn’t really like about this trip was that I am the only girl, with 6 more other guys. I feel like an annoying piece of shit, because I understand how a girl can be very bothersome when walking with a bunch of guys who wanna do their stuffs. Especially when both sexes have different ways of walking or sightseeing or shopping or whatever else. I understand that, so I tried not to be too demanding or gedik or bitchy or anything else.

So after walking for quite a while, I demanded to leave because my train back to Besançon is at 7.28pm and I don’t want to miss the train. The guys accompanied me to the subway, and we took the train together, but to different directions. As much as I love being around them, talking, joking and laughing with them, I know I must not ask them to go to Gare de Lyon with me. That would be selfish. So they went to Chatelet, and I went to the train station, went up on the TGV, till now, here I am, writing this blogpost.

So overall, this day trip is awesome, and tiring too. I will definitely drop dead when I reach home, and tomorrow has to be a better day because I need to run and I need to study! I hope I will have future chances to hang out with the bunch of guys again, it has been fun and happy hanging around with them.

Cliché : Everybody must go to bars for countdown, or do something super fun on NYE. But come on, why must we hold on to that, leaving those not party-ing feel like shit because they are spending NYE alone? Or not having a blast? Take lonely god-knows-who for example. She’s probably at home, sitting down in front of her laptop, stalking people on facebook, or either posting up something so pious I don’t even want to bother. Or maybe take poor IPBA students for example. They might have to just stay in all thanks to the stupid curfew hours the college set, not knowing how disappointed those students would really be. Thankfully, I, had quite a good NYE at a friend’s, having sushi and playing society games with the rest of the bunch. It was a great one despite of alcohol deficiency. But it was an awesome one.

2010 has been great. Just like the passing years, 2010 was a year both filled with good and bad events but everything went well and, finished well before the new year began. Like so many other people, I, beyond any doubt, hope for the best. More good stuffs, less bad stuffs (or maybe none at all). And more significantly, I am so looking forward to becoming a better person this new year.

Resolutions :

I have a lot of them. Basic stuffs, save more money, lose more weight, study more, play less and score higher marks. A part of that, there are some other stuffs that I would love to add on. Since I moved to a smaller and cheaper rent place now, I will not have to use half of my allowance to pay rent and bills. A quarter would be more than enough. Thus, another quarter will go to savings, the third quarter to feeding my poor self and personal leisure, the last one will go to shoppings! I really mean it! I’m tired of wearing the same tees and jackets over and over again, and my shoes are all history! My bags are still all ok, but I still need to get like at least 1 trench coat, 1 faux leather jacket and 1 winter coat. I figured, I can save more on foodstuffs, eating too good food will not make me look good, so buying nice clothes will be a much better decision to make.

And, I want to go brunette! Hahaha! I’ve been having 2 colored hair since summer, it was awesome and my friends were asking if my hair colors are natural.. Blabla.. But this time I wanna go brunette! And maybe do some curls too, having long hair is unbearably excruciating especially when it never turns out as straight as you want it to be.

Besides all that, I’m thinking if I should take out my nose piercing or not. It’s cool, but back home is not really a suitable place to have a pierced nose. Back home yes, but back to college? Dad would be furious to know, but I’m not sure if he already did know or not, mom knows it, and the rest of my sisters. Haha! I should ask my mom when I have the chance.

I need to start spring cleaning my house! I’m one of those chicks who really loves to keep and collect stuffs : I have 9 stuffed animals on my bed, 4 pillows and a 2 person’s comforter. I have 12 books, 3 unreads and 1 half way through. 5 boxes of DVD, 3 un-watch. Other than that, papers, files, past years notes, colored paper, sentimental values cards and notes, photos and all that kind of rubbish. In my closet, lots and lots of clothes I keep and I never wear them because I brought them from Malaysia, and I thought if I give them away, I would be too sad later then even though I know I never wear them! Last thing, my kitchenette! I hate to say this but I think I’m gonna have to suspend my cuisine blog. I love cooking and discovering new recipes, but not having a big cooking space and enough (or more) ingredients will never make my food blog look good.

Last but not least. I need to stop bragging about guys.I’ve had experience here, but it never turned out good. They just come and go, especially when you know the guys here are only interested in you for one shit. To keep it short, I don’t even want to try.

So yeah, Happy New Year everyone! Most people will definitely post up their resolutions, I don’t really take mine as resolutions, but those are things that I want to do this year, and I hope that all that can be done.

So I went to last weekend’s open house at a friend’s, and it was awesome although it’s a religion thing! We had lots of foods, there were many people, we chit-chatted, watch Kingdom of Heaven, and we took pictures! Haha! That was the main-fun event happened and I was wrong to not wanting to go at first! Thank God I went! I learnt that, never judge a book by it’s cover. Er, I’m not sure if it can be considered correct in this contexte, but yeah, don’t ever judge things or you will either regret or miss the fun!

Ok I’m so thirsty I think I’ll do coffee first to quench my thirst and then I’ll get back blogging. I have a lot to say!!

*back*

Lol, that was fast. Coffee cures almost everything for me, when I’m sick, I’ll down 2 cups of coffee in a day and also, lots of water, and the next day, I’m okay! (Well, probably it was the water that did it’s thing, not the coffee, but what the heck! Haha!) Yes, coffee is one of the most important and favourite things in my life, since childhood my mom fed me coffee at least one spoonful everyday! I can never ever leave coffee alone! Give it java chip, espresso, caffe latte, oldtown kopi, kopi ‘o’, cappucino, cafe viennois, I love all of them! I can definitely not live with someone who despises coffee! Haha!

So this week was quite a good and fun week, je dirais, my series of unfortunate events are finally over now! Hahah! Since I’ve pierced my nose, a girl friend of mine told me that piercing chases good luck away, and a second after that, I had problems. Soooooooo much problems I don’t even wanna mention them here. Hahaha! But yeah, the coolest thing is that it’s all over now, I’m back to good again! Yippay! And I have a pierced nose!! Woot!

The thing is, exams are coming so soon but I don’t think I’m ready for it! There are just too much to read, rewrite, ask, compare, and stuffs like that. I’ve been recopying my notes and comparing them with my friends’ but I’m still not confident! I hope I’ll pass the exams because I don’t wanna repeat! Or resit. Sigh. Once I get my study table, I’ll make sure to be on the table 12/24!! Hahahaha!! As if? I should stop blogging now and go study right? But I still have so much to talk about, maybe I’ll keep them short and fast the next time! And I haven’t blog about Adam Lambert yet, I wish I had the time! I’ll do it this weekend maybe.

Ok, so now this blog is currently the place for my rantings on daily events. I think I must not blog that much about my day, because I will totally spend so much time typing, correcting and stuffs. But ah! I was over blogging few months ago and now when I start again, I’m addicted! Gah.. ><

Joey McIntyre sang, “Have faith in what you do, you will make it through”.

Sigh. I have been sighing on this matter since months ago. Tomorrow’s Eid celebration made me sigh out loud again tonight. Should I go? Should I not go? I hate to be the different in the bunch. Not being able to understand what they are trying to say, or actually, always trying to ignore what they people say. What do you expect me to do? I don’t celebrate. But then, my absence will definitely draw attention and later on, the talk. For them, it’s impolite if I don’t show up. This sucks.

They would have understood. They should have, if they didn’t. It’s like, inviting them to Wesak Day. They will never come.

I wasn’t sure of what to believe, years before this. I nearly got my self converted to Christianity, when I was 15. And then I held on tight to what I used to believe. In Buddhism. Do good, even though good might not come to you, all that matters is to give and not to take. I’d lie if I say I never take. I take, a lot. Everybody does. We can’t deny it. And when I came to France, science came into me and all I believed at that moment was science, nothing but science. After much thoughts, I went back to Buddhism, after all those proves given by science, it’s still not solid enough for me. There must be this Supreme Being we call God who created everything at first. I thought.

And then I read this book written by Mitch Albom, Have a Little Faith. Mesmerized. And so true. You should read it.

Doesn’t matter what you believe in, it’s too much work to bother what everybody believed in. I don’t give a fucking damn. I’m angry when they look at me as if like I’m not a believer. I believe in what I believe in, even though I seldom practice. I don’t burn incenses, I don’t have it here. I don’t do 5 prayers in a day, but I think of God every now and then. I’ll be damned in hell, everybody will, and that’s not for us to say.

I just hate to be different in a bunch. I can tell you, it sucks balls.

I wish I could runaway tomorrow.

I want to do so many things! But, no time! Gah. Je suis trop dégoutée en ce moment. Luckily I already bought my flight tickets to London. I can just go wild there for 6 days! Go shopping, go hang out have coffee and stuffs. Yea, same thing, there are so many places that I want to go to, but I cannot! Aaak! I wanna go take pictures at the football stadiums, Liverpool, Manchester, but nah I will not be able to. Mais bon, it’s not that bad I think because there are direct flights from Lyon/Bale to Liverpool, and Manchester is only an hour away from Liverpool, maybe next time I can do a day trip there? Hahahah!

I want to update my iPhone to IOS4.1! But oh my God seriously, my iPhone is operating so slow, I just don’t understand why. Well, hehehe, I actually know why, well it’s definitely because I’ve downloaded too many rubbishes into my phone, that’s why it lags at times. Haha! And now, I’m restoring it, and after that I will try to update it! Don’t care about all those lost photos or what, I already got them backed-up into my laptop! Mwahaha!! ) But yea, messages in WhatsApp.. :’( Sigh. What? Sentimental value ok?? :’(

I want to, er, go and see concerts! More and more and more concerts! Like, Bon Jovi, All American Rejects, Maroon 5, I want!! Lol! I’m a greedy pig, I know! Oh yea and I wanna eat Bah Kut Teh too, Ah Ping BKT at Subang SS14, preferably.

Mais apparemment, le plus important pour moi est d’avoir un bel appartement pour vivre, j’ai trop envie de décorer! Sweat. Let’s go to IKEA sometime, maybe next year. After all the exams, then I can decorate my house so nicely. But first I think I have to get rid of my sampah first. Tooooooo much lapsaps lah! Let’s do garage sale! Or should I just give them away? Old clothes qui ont moins d’un an, aaa c’est du gaspillage! Lol! All the “sapo langchangs”, last year’s notes, and stuffs. I hate stuffs. They take so much spaces! But they’re like rubbish. Sentimental rubbish. Got value one, Hahaha! I have a queen sized bed, my teddy bears occupied 1/2 of the bed! Haha! Teddy bears are cute ok! They are there when you’re sleeping, and you will never feel lonely! (Ok I sounded super pathetic, instead of plushies, I should get a man instead eh? XP)

Last but not least, I want 2010 to finish as soon as possible! Let the new year begin with new good stuffs! And let’s end the year with good stuffs too, like, go countdown with your loved ones, don’t care if it’s under an old oak tree, let’s squat down beside the frozen river, with candles on the ground, and fire crackers in the sky, let’s hold our hands together while counting, and let’s give each other a kiss when the clock shows 12. Aaaaa so romantic!!! Hahahahaha! Macam desperate gila la aku ni.. =.=

Yea so that’s pretty much all. Hehehe.

Oh yeah! I want iPhone 4!!! Hahahahahahahahaha!!

Last Tuesday, the students voted to block the faculty entrances for the week, all thanks to Nicolas Sarkozy for not signing the deal. Apparently the whole France is protesting against the new pension reforms. Who the hell wants to work until they’re 62 or 67 years old? I see many reasons for not even creating this law, especially when there are so many unemployed youngsters and homeless students across the roads! They should open more work offers for them, instead of asking the seniors to work until they became great grand parents, they would definitely love to stay home taking care of their grandkids! Bleerggghh!! I’m so disgusted.

I might not stay and work in France for now, and I may have no rights at all to complain about this, but yeah, it bugs me because when they do strikes, I cannot move. There are no buses, no trains, and apparently the faculties are blocked, so on and so forth. Instead of blocking all those shits, the strikers should just figure out something else better to force NS’s signature on the agreement. Like, stop consuming even anything for 2 days and the government will give them what they want. Imagine how many millions of euros of loss for a day, and imagine how the market will fall. Try doing this, and you guys will have advance Christmas celebration.

Paling beh tahan, why, of all things, of all ideas, why, why, did they have to block the faculty? It doesn’t make any senses at all! You want to be smart, go to class, get good grades, graduate with flying colors, get masters or doctorates or what ever shit, and you can get a good work! To barricade the damn university will never bring any good, the other group of students they get angry and they will go striking against you people. Bodoh gile! It doesn’t make any senses. Nah, dedicate one song to you all strikers : Think Think Think sang by My friends Tigger & Pooh. Or maybe go get Namewee to compose a song to NS lah. Lol.

This Monday there’s gonna be another vote, to vote for the re-conduction of this stupid blockage! Kanasai. Nah some photos to share share.

(We would not want to fight for retirement)

(General Assembly in Donzelot amphitheatre)

Tables and chairs also can use to stuck the way. Lol.

Thank you for not letting us into our classes! We don’t have to go to classes anymore! Weeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! >.<

Gah!

I woke up at 8am, start texting a friend to wake him up too. I lazied on the bed, thinking of what I should have for breakfast and then I thought, I still have some bread, some tuna spread and lettuce so I should totally make sandwich!

Not long after that, my alarm rang, and I off it. And then I toss and turn on my bed, thinking of what else should I do. I remembered I must go to the Major to send copy of my student card. And then I feel like cleaning up the house and all then suddenly, the stupid alarm rang again.

I off it.

And then, few minutes later, I closed my eyes, and I kinda guess I fell into deep sleep again, until my friend replied my text at 10.35am. I held my phone, trying to reply I guess, but in vain because I went back darn to sleep! Blueeeeghhhh and woke up again at 10.55am to hit that reply button when the alarm rang and yeah I snoozed the damn alarm!

Suddenly at 12, a girl called for to visit the apartment when I totally forgot! I rush to change my attire and hide everything below the comforter!

What a shameeeeee!!!!!!!!

I’m so mad with myself! I could have just got out of bed and do stuffs I wanted to do!!

=.=

Lessons learnt :
1. Not to stay on the bed when you woke up.
2. Not to think to much because thinking a lot doesn’t make you a lot wiser but sleepier.

Hello, fellow readers. Long time no see. I’ve been so busy with so much things (which I don’t know what to classify them as). Alors, it has been some time since I’ve last said hello in this blog. And aaak! I haven’t update my food blog too because I was so busy (like I mentioned earlier) and so I haven’t been discovering recipes since then!

First and foremost, I am so happy with the fact that time has pass so quick without me realizing it! I was in Uni 2 months ago and now, we’re reaching Christmas holidays already! I’m planning on a vacation to London during the break, and oh, I really should confirm everything as fast as I can and book the tickets as soon as possible! London, Canterbury, then Bristol! Yeeeaaay!

Secondly, on the 18th of November, (3 weeks time) I am going to GLAMNATION! Weeeee. Adam Lambert in action! I’m going with a new friend from Seattle, and she’s going to Adam’s concert in Paris, Zurich, Vienna, and Amsterdam! Super damn die hard fan eh! Well, I do love Adam Lambert but going to one of his concert is already perfect as I missed his show in Malaysia. Et puis, a friend and I are actually planning to go to another concert the week before, Boyce Avenue, ever heard of them? But um, yeah. We’re not so sure yet but I feel like going there, it would definitely be a nice trip with him before he flies back to Malaysia summer next year. Sigh. Oh yeah, go check Boyce Avenue out! They do covers, and some really are nicer than original ones!

Thirdly, I want to have Starbucks. Or at least, a good coffee, while having a good talk with someone. Like how I used to do in Malaysia! My friend and I will go to Starbucks to have a chat, we’ll get a magazine from the store and start feuilleter les pages seeing expensive clothes, reading horoscopes, checking out every single photos on the magazine. I want to do that so much! The most important thing is that : I wanna have Starbucks with you, this special person. I really really do, and I hope you know who you are…

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I am so thankful that uni is not that difficult to cope with. I have Phonetique et Phonologie, Semiotique des Medias, Enonciation, Pragmatique et Argumentation as cours obligatoire, and then for options, I’m taking Description du Francais (FLE), Chinese, and Francais Perfectionnement (I super hate this class). Haha! We Malaysians, we don’t get to choose. We can only choose either to take Chinese, English, Arabian, Spanish or Italian, and those other 2 subjects, we have to take it. I don’t really like how they fix everything for us though. For example, instead of French Description, I could have chosen French History instead, and for French Perfection, I could have taken English because I do need my weekly dose of English! The way they fix the contract is actually kind of dumb, KPM scholars in France must be moulded with elements that can make us good french teachers when we graduate, so why make us take Semiotics? =.= But, but but, I love Semiotics so much, when I finish my contract with schools, I think I should pursue my masters in Semiotics and be a semiologist! Hehehehe.

Hmm, what did I miss? I guess that’s just all. Hopefully I can blog more often. Heehee!!

Adios mis amigos,

I should have seen it coming when the roses died
Should have seen the end of summer in your eyes
I should have listened when you said good night
You really meant good bye

Baby ain’t it funny how you never ever learn to fall
You’re really on your knees when you think you’re standing tall
But only fools are know-it-alls and I’ve played that fool for you

I cried and cried every night
There were nights that I died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny it that your love drove me crazy baby

If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I’ve cried ain’t that long
Then I’m wrong yeah I’m wrong
This ain’t a love song

Baby I thought you and me would
Stand the test of time
Like we got away with the perfect crime
But we were just a legend in my mind
I guess that I was blind

Remember those nights dancing at the masquerade
The clowns wore smiles that wouldn’t fade
You and I were the renegades some things never change

It made me so mad ’cause I wanted it bad for us baby
And now it’s so sad that whatever we had
Ain’t worth saving oh oh oh
If the love that I’ve got for you is gone
If the river I’ve cried ain’t that long
Then I’m wrong yes I’m wrong
This ain’t a love song

If the pain that I’m feeling so strong
Is the reason that I’m holding on
Then I’m wrong yeah I’m wrong
This ain’t a love song

I cried and I cried every night
There were nights that I died for you baby
I tried and I tried to deny it that
Your love drove me crazy

If the love that I got for you is gone
If the river I cried ain’t that long
Then I’m wrong yeah I’m wrong
This ain’t a love song

Then I’m wrong yeah I’m wrong
This ain’t a love song
oh oh oh no no