Hi folks. Has been quite a long time since i write, guess what, my laptop is not fixed yet, still have to install and download some things to make it complete like before. During these days without my laptop, i devoted my 24 hours to sleeping and things other than surfing internet. In the end, i caught some allergies for one week and a minor fever! Haha. Ironic.

Well, i am starting to think over bout my life, about things i missed before. Guess I’m quite happy with my life now, first and foremost is that i have a super happy family, i have wonderful parents, sisters, brothers and a very cute nephew who makes me happy all the time, then i have everything i want, even my profession is fixed, i don’t have any financial problems, i have the chance to pursue studies in an European country, i have friends who stand by me (as far as i know), its like, there is nothing for me to worry about. Everything is like, fixed. Nevertheless, i still feel that something is still missing. I feel, lonely.

Be given as an example, most of the time, when i am at the hostel, in my room, i spend most of my time studying, sleeping, watching dvds, surfing the net and do whatever i can; alone. Where as my friends, they lunch together, they dine together, the study together, they watch dvds together, its like they do everything together. And me, I’d always stay alone, which i think i prefer to, as i don’t really adore being in a super havoc situation. I’m not racist, mind you, and I’m not choosy. I’m just a typical type of human being who actually demands for something which i love, to do something that i know i like to do. And my course mates, they are not my type of people. We are friends, but we don’t cling to each other. But they are nice, a group of super nice people that everyone would like to get near with. I tried a few times to be with them, and as i try and try, i would say that it doesn’t work. We just don’t get along that well, we don’t really have the connection to each other. We are friends, coursemate and classmate. But, sorry to say, we can’t seem to mix, as in mix like we’re good friends who can count on each other to live on. I miss my previous life, where i hang out with my old friends. I miss the precious time with the one i used to be so close to.

However, being in a new environment is not that bad after all. Especially when i come to live in a ’so civilized’ town like KL. Being in this new place, i learned a lot, and the most important thing is that i gained so much experience.  It is obviously different from Penang, which i spent 17 years living under my beloved family’s supervision, everything was done by them, even from breakfast to supper was prepared by them. But here, i find myself so eerily pathetic, whereby i still can’t manage my things properly. Given time for dinner, but i would still be doing something else like sleeping, bathing, surfing the net, and whatever else. What is happening to me..

And these days, i had been freaking sensitive. Take some examples in the class. I am not a hardworking student, but i believe in ‘paying more attention in class is better than keeping up ourself so late at night to study’. And i really hold tight to it because being a linguistic student, it is very boring to study the same thing every time. Plus, i do my assignments during night time and if i continue to study during that hours, i will surely be tired and exhausted. I am not lazy. Don’t say that i can use my time after classes to study. I usually go out for swimming and basketball during the evening so do not complain that i waste my time doing nothing. En plus, the time is mine, not yours!

Ok lets just get back to the point. Lately i got the results for my previous test, and i passed the test. And i passed with 75,5 marks, which i myself is contented with what i get. Just say what ever you want to say, yes, it is not a high note but at least it is more than what i targeted. I might not be the top scorer like the previous tests, but that doesn’t mean that i didn’t progress. Guess what, i did progress ok? And i got 24/25 for 1 of the paper which is the writing paper, and i didn’t expect that. … Why am i that pissed? Because, my tutor, Miss Teh, she said something that really hurt me much. “Don’t be satisfied with high marks”, “Work in groups! Share your knowledge! Don’t bodoh sombong!!”

Why are you keeping pointing at me? Look at my results, i did well, and my marks are progressing. They are not going down. But what is the reason of me always being the one pointed, the one taken as a bad example? She might not say words straight towards me, but she did something indirectly, that i can understand that she was trying to mention me in her speeches. Yes i admit that i played a lot, but look at my marks! I didn’t score 50 or 60. My marks are all above 70! And being in a language course for almost a year only, it isn’t easy to keep it up. It isn’t easy to face the lecturer’s critics and to give a neutral visage for it.

Ok, stop about that lecturer’s thingy. Now that i am more concern in getting myself more connected to the world. Its dreadful to know that people actually judges you from your appearance, not your competences. So shall i dress up like a doll so that you people will think that I’m nice, or shall i dress like Beyonce so that you guys will say I’m cool? Oh junks.

I’m missing some one right now. Again. But this person is a friend of mine, used to be close at times. Our relationship is like a season, for once, we can be so close, and the week after all i listen from that special person is silence. I don’t understand. It is so, not consistent?

Whatever it takes, i will still try to discover my life here in this so call urban ville.

With the help of the people here too, i guess..

So lame. Suddenly it goes crazy la the hard disk. Habis lah my TVB series all gone! Re-download it again? Peh, better i go and buy the DVD suak. Boh-eng la like that, cannot use laptop and do assignment liao, and have to always go to the library. Sien nia.

Siao until duno what ady la i. Grr. Gone sasau ady. Grr. Don’t wait for the new posts lah. Shall write new posts next week lah.

Kanasai betul.

*cries*

Well, i went to church the other day to watch a skit. Its about a son (ah Kiang) wanting to become a cook, whereas his father (Mr Khoo) wished that he could become someone more educated like an acountant. Mr Khoo sells Hokkien Mee, and his wife (ah Lian) helps him with the works at the stall. Then there are these groups of neighbour, and also ah Kiang’s friend, (Sue) which i can say a very cute girl (who looks a bit like Pame). Being the only son in the family, it is for sure that the father will want his son to be a successful person, and not just any hawker selling Hokkien Mee at the Tai Pai Tong there. En revanche, the son wanted so much to be a cook, that he disobeyed his father and went to London to pursue his studies in culinary. (He should as well go to France to learn how to make fondue and couscous! =p) Few years later, he came back to Malaysia, bringing his own Hokkien Mee pati or something like that, and that made his father so proud of him. Hurm. I was so interested bout this skit because there were some conversations in Hokkien, and its kinda hard to find it here in PJ. And yea, not to forget the Hokkien Kua in the skit, which i listened Daddy and Momy singing it when i was so small! Haaha. Miss those time..

DELF B1
I am so worried for the results. Superbly freaking out that i couldn’t sleep last night, and i am very sure i won’t be sleeping tonight either. The results were out, and we will go and take the certificates tomorrow at Alliance Francaise. I heard from lecturers that in out Cohort, one person failed. Will it be me? I hope not. I’m not being snobbish, over confident or whatever u guys call a person when she/he is confident she will not fail her exam. But i know i won’t. Because i had been studying like hell, and i know i did the exam well. Grr. But what if i’m the one who failed?

Arghhhhh~

Momy Dady, i miss u. Chey miss u too. Ryan, eeyo miss u.. Erjie, can’t go back Subang this weekend, got class on Saturday! =(.. Sanjie, ur birthday present is still with me!

Stress. Encore et toujours.

She is really nervous i guess.. =D

Health?

1. Do we really need 8 hours of sleep to get energized the next morning?

2. Do we really need 8 glasses of water everyday to keep our body system healthy and good?

3. Do we really need to eat on time? As in breakfast, lunch and dinner? What if we skip one of them?

4. Do we really have to follow the piramid table of nutritious food?

5. Do we need to spend 20 minutes of exercise every evening?

~ No wonder Jessica is fat! Haha.. =P

1. I sleep 4 hours during the night and 1 to 2 hours during the evening! Hoh! Now i realize how good it is to be a small kid. They got to ‘font la sieste’ (nap) every evening, and they don’t have to stay up or wake up early in the morning!

2. 8 glasses of water? I think, i only took 4 to 5 glasses of pure mineral water before this. Not to forget other beverages! Milo ais? Teh ais? And oh my chrysanthemum tea! =D

3. I’m a BIG eater! Je mange trop! Haha. Sometimes i skip lunch, but i eat like lembu for dinner! Haha. No wonder no wonder. =P

4. I am so not following nutrition table. Er, how much calories they have in a set of McChicken? Hahaha!

5. 20 minutes of exercise every evening? oh my, do i even have time for that? =P

Kajian telah membuktikan bahawa Jessica Ang May Ching memang tak healthy, and she really needs to think about living healthily, because if not, she might end up being like a ‘SeeLai’ !! Haha.

Should i, or should i not?

1. Sacrifice the evenings~

- go to the library to do some studying, research, (can do it in the room also actually =p)
- not to take a half and hour nap, and instead of using 2 hours to watch 2 episodes of my beloved TVB drama, cut it to 1?

2. From social networking to educational sites~

- ‘Yes’ TV5 (news channel in France) or Liberation or Le Nouvel Observateur (online newspaper in France)
- ‘No’ Facebook/blogging/Friendster/uploading photos/and other online activities???

3. Byebye Midvalley~

- Stay in the room and finish all the homeworks so that i don’t need to stay up at night! Yippee!
- Stop going to Midvalley from evening to night, instead of going to Carrefour, go to TMC? But i will not get to window shopping woh? *cries*

4. Dining in~

- Get some koko krunch or whatever snacks for dinner? While eating can study also. Hihihi.
- Byebye Kim Gary,
- Byebye McD,
- Byebye Sushi King,
- Byebye Toastbox
- Byebye etc etc?

5. Swimming pool~

;)/:( - I can never live without going swimming at least once a week!! Hahahah!!

AU SECOURS! HELP!

Haihz, i am so worried for my exams! I don’t want to fail my exam. SobbSobb. I heard stories from lecturers about the seniors failing their DELF C1. And oh i feel so worry for them too. Before this, i always thought that studying language won’t be that difficult if compared to the sciences subjects. So, life in college won’t be that hectic and we can have some free times to do some private stuffs. En revanche, for me, even though i still have the time to go and lepak outside, the homeworks and assignments are like still waiting for me to bermanja-manja with them! Je suis stressée! Encore, et toujours!

And i think i am a little bit crazy already also. Justifications?

1. I listen to christmas songs nowadays! Haha! Well, it might be winter in Australia now, but its not yet Christmas leh. Hahaha.

2. I often fell asleep while doing work or watching dramas. And that is like from 6 to 7pm. Bizarre, bizarre!

3. So i woke up at 7pm, and sometimes 8pm also! =.=” … Did some washings, mandi, and duduk depan the laptop again. At 9.45pm ++, twit twit! SMS! *jom makan!* ~ its like already supper time, and i took rice! ?? After this sure gemuk wan. ;’(

Aish. I don’t know la. I need to organize my time properly, if not i can jadi gila one! Haha. And oh my God! This Saturday got class somemore. Spoil my plan to go and watch The Cliff! =(

Jessica est stressée!

Je savais, vous êtes tous sache, et vous étés tous très gentils parce que vous faites les meilleures pour les biens de votre étudiants. Mais, savez-vous, on est très occupes quelques fois, et quand il y a le temps libre, on aimerait bien faire les devoirs ou étudier les choses que vous aviez nous donne. Alors, j’espère que vous pouvez nous laisser pendant ce temps la, parce qu’il y a bien d’autre chose que nous devions faire. Je suis désolée, mais je suis très stressée. On apprécie beaucoup les connaissances que vous nous donniez, on vous dit merci bien. On vous aime, et on va vous aimer toujours. Mais, je souhaite que vous puissiez nous donner un peu de temps libre pour étudier soi-même, car c’est pas toujours possible d’accumuler les informations, surtout les connaissances dans les longues heures.
~ Je suis désolée!

Gosh, the wireless connection here really sucks to the max la. It is just so hard even to connect to 3com. Gah!! So pissed off. I’m currently at starbucks, sipping some java chip, (really makes me high, hahahaha) looking at some drool looking guys, ehem.. I mean, those cute baristas who smile whenever i look at them (accidentally) haha. The juniors are finally here, and yea, i saw some of them too. They look very innocent, at least some were, just thinking when will they show their true colour. Hahaha. Ok, talking bout innocent people, don’t get easily bluffed by people like that. Sometimes they can be so nice with u, but u wouldn’t know that these people could be probably those who have 2 faces. Or maybe 3 or 4 also. n i am superbly pissed off with them. Few weeks or days ago, i can still tahan with them, but sorry i burst last night. I shouldn’t talk bout this, but what the heck! I want to! Imagine some friend of yours, came to u and complain bout the whole world, complaining bout people who pisses them off, talking bout those people who do stuffs to make them feel bad or what so ever. All these while, a friend of mine always come to me and complain about all that nonsense. So much of complaints that sometimes it can make me feel so annoyed. But even so, i still listen to their stupid problems, and try to console them also. In the end, they turn out to treat those people who pisses them off so good, even better than treating a friend who has been listening to their fucking problems all year long. Gosh! One time u can throw all the hatred off your mouth, talking bad things bout them and curse at them, but when it comes to action, u showed ur compassions and love to them like u were so close to them. What the hell? Why are u so fake? Have u been fake towards me or them, i had no idea! People like that are extremely dangerous. It was like, hey, i don’t even know u anymore!!! Gah! And these people are really ridiculous because they just won’t let u talk to ur other friends, they will try so hard to cut in the conversation, and the worst part is that they will make as if like they don’t know u! OH FUCK! Back off u backstabbers. R u trying to be jealous because i can socialize better than u? MERDES!! Je te deteste beaucoup! Grrrrrr.. Ok, i’m done ranting. Lets move on to the next topic.

We got new time table for this week, until September. Thomas won’t be here because he’s going to France for summer holidays. Yippee!! Haha. And Nadege is going back to France, she don’t want to work in Malaysia anymore. Gosh. Are we students too naughty that makes her want to go back? Haha. No lah, her contract with Malaysia is only for a year, and then it depends on her whether she wants to continue or she wants to go elsewhere to continue her studies. Will miss her, sobb sobb. Haha. She’s a very good lecturer, i can say. She is très savant, (aiye, dunno the word in english.. informatic kot? haha.) But sometimes she is super fierce that we totally freak off when she naikkan her voice. Scary…. Hehe.

Oh ya, last weekend my family and i went to Ipoh, went to visit Ah-ma, Mimi, and the rest of the relatives. Close relatives. Very very close relatives. Hehe. Yea, and Peter Hu is there too!! Ngehngehngeh. My sister’s boyfriend. Amboi amboi la they all, baru saje hooked up like few months ago, and then brought to see the big family already! Hehe. The funniest part is after this is my turn to bring someone to see them. Hahhhhhh!!! Cannot accept the fact!!! C’est incroyable!! Haha, i’ll bring someone when i come back from France la. =P Then, yea, we went to eat dimsum for breakfast also. I forget the place already, but it was at Ipoh town there, near the GrandView hotel there. After that, we went to Dr park!! Haha. It was drizzling though, and Ryan keep running here and there. Haha, itu budak really likes to go to the park and play. Yea la, budak kecik ma. Haha. Then somemore snap some crazy photos at the park, can see them in Facebook la. Aiye, my nose really look so big la in one photo!! Benci nya aku. Haha. ZZzZZZZzzz..

Ok ok. Those baristas are really looking at me. Shall i go n say hi? Haha.. Perasannya aku!! No la, they are not looking at me. They are looking at those pretty chicks outside walking in. =P … I’m hoping for other people to look at me though.. Hahaha..

I shall bangun and leave starbucks now. Sudah lama la aku duduk di sini.

Chauchau!! =D

1. Ryan is sick already!

2. Classes until late evening almost everyday!

3. Laptop’s charger rosak!

4. Facebook kena blocked by websense? KPM? *cccccciiiiibbbbbbzzzz~*.

5. New lecturer came. Wonderful~

6. Been superbly busy with assignments and assignments and works and blablabla..

7. Friends flew to Germany already. Wish them goodluck! =)

8. Internet connection still sucks to the max, couldn’t connect and have to become parasite again.

9. Been watching Heart Of Greed (a tvb drama) and cried a few times also! *sobb2* -i know i’m emo =p-

10. Am always hungry everyday because no time to get proper meal. Hopefully can be thin also! Muahahahahaha!!!