Woke up early in the morning just now, and hoped for the best in today’s presentation. We had both, 1 c’est la presentation de la politique en France, et j’ai expose sur le pouvoir judiciaire, et la suite c’est la presentation qui s’agit de Monsieur Pagnol et son roman intitulé ‘Le Château de Ma Mère’. (The first one is about the politique in France and i had to present about the justice powers, then after that we had to present about Marcel Pagnol, a famous autour who wrote the book My Mother’s Castle.

But it was a ’suwey’ day for me today! It was so strange that my diaporama went lost and corrupted in some way, and i had to present without any slides! Kadewaleeeee~~~ Ok then so i was blamed for not keeping another copy in any pendrive but hey, how was i to know that only my part will lost that time. Its super weird because ce n’est que mon diaporama qui est perdu!! (only mine lost!) Merrdeeesss!! But eventhough i presented without slides and stuffs like that, i was able to present also. The lecturer said something that lifted my spirit up and up till now, i feel so bersemangat and i will try my very best to improve better and excel! Merci Monsieur Azhar!

“Vous lisez beaucoup, mais je sais bien que vous avez peur parce que votre diaporama est perdu. Mais en comparant les 4 personnes dans ta groupe, vous êtes toujours la gagnante! Comme vous êtes a l’aise dans l’orale, essayez de parler avec une langue assez haute, ça veut dire, utilisez les mots que vous avez chercher et reformuler avec vos propres mots. Comme ça vous pouvez aider vos amis a mieux comprendre. C’est un défi! Brève, ça va!”

(You read the text alot, but i know that you are scared because your diaporama had lost. But comparing you with your friends in the group, you were and always the winner! And since you already are good in orale, try to reformulate the words and the informations you found so that you can help your friends understand better. Its a challenge for you! Briefly, its good!)

Yeap, with this, i have more confidence in myself and i hope i will get the same (infact better!) testimony from him again! I am so happy. Haha!! Not to forget the presentation of Marcel Pagnol during Monsieur Liew’s class. He said très bien too!

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So today, we had a netball tournament and guess what, we lost! Hahaha. Too bad, i don’t know how to play netball, i nearly bounce the ball throughout the game because i am biasa with basketball already! Ahahahahah~ Tant pis la!!

Hi folks. I am so tired at the moment so i’ll just post up a little things that i wish to say, and some photos. Yeap, my birthday was a month ago, but i’m still receiving presents from my loved ones. A few days after i arrived IPBA, Ayn gave me a Bollywood DVD which i never had the chance to watch it because of the pact schedules, then Grace gave me a cute little christmas towel, Adelynn bought a very beautiful bracelet, Idzrul with a nice bag, Che Nad, a little pink plushie and last but not least, Atikah gave me a very big Kungfu Hustle lollipop which i shared with almost everyone in the cafe in block 4.

A christmas towel from Grace,

A bracelet from Adelynn,

A Wild Channel bag from Idzrul,

A cute pinkish smily plushie from Che Nad,

Group photo of a farewell gathering for Che Nad, my basketball mate.

Thanks to all of them so much, it has been really nice having them around and it is a great jo to have known a bunch of friends like them.

I often thought about all the happiness that i want when i grow up. However, past experiences kept bugging me until at one instance, i want to give up. I do wrongs since i was small, up till today, non-stop. I knew and i always felt guilty, but what can i do. An apologize does not mean a big thing, i knew that, but that is all i can do. Who can i blame for all my immature attitudes, and who am i to blame when all of that were done by me myself.

Now that i am getting older, i know i can make my own decisions, i know some of the ‘whats’ i did and i want to do is right. But in some other hearts and eyes, i am always young, naive, and my doings must be traced so that they can assure that i don’t do mistakes. Other hearts understand me, but they have yet to understand me from top to bottom. Some eyes don’t see how good i do, but they always comment and judge me.

Being away for so many years, i know it is logical when they treat me that way. Ways of showing affection are different from one and another. I am always left beside, and i had always shed my tears because i don’t like to be left aside. But however, i pretend as if i am not sad, i am ok with it, and when other people ask, i said its okay if they leave me. The truth is, i am not okay. I want to let everyone know that i am not okay, but it is just hard to let everything out. Even to the person i share the same blood with, it is hard to tell and let all out because i know they wouldn’t understand. The more i share, the more that i’ll be blamed.

8 months to go, then i’ll be somewhere far, farther than i can be. Of course i feel happy that i can further my studies in somewhere over the coast, and of course there is sadness that lies between. I wish i don’t need to go, but at the same time, i am happy for the opportunity. And this time, i will be away for 3 years, which is not a short time, and probably will not be back for a subsequent 3 years. The idea of leaving will always be a glum one for me, but i hope when i get back, things will change.

“Where’s the promised happiness?
I understand
Let’s not talk about it
Love has faded
The dream has become distant
I count each and every happy and unhappy thing
Once more you’re reluctant to let go
Those feelings of having loved are too deep
I still remember them…”

(Where’s the promised happiness, Capricorn, Jay Chou, 2008.)

The first day of the new term doesn’t seem to go on that well. I actually felt a little disappointed, hearing all the stuffs that we had to face now and in future, and some people doesn’t seem to move forward with better spirit and better attitude. Even me who don’t really have any new year resolution, i decided that i will do my best in everything, studies, social, and stuffs like that. However, in class wise, the lecturer welcomed us with wide hands open, happily, but not hesitating to give us more works because they knew well, we, the students spent the holidays with all the leisures and rests and i bet, everybody had benefit something from the long holidays.

But the drastic changes is one of the most scariest and i can say, unpleasing to all students. (At least i am) I realised that students of all IPG are obliged to follow the rules in this Akta 174. The student affairs department will be restructured and the new ones will be the officers from the ministry it self. What i hope for this time is that, they will do their very best to provide all the relevant needs of all students. And i would very much like if they are not racist like the previous ones, where for them, skirts below knees are very short and obscene. Haha!

As you all know (if you have been reading my blog since the very start), i am famous for my ‘bodoh sombong’ nickname even though i am not that bodoh or not that sombong, hehe :P. But surprisingly, I’ve been elected as the assistant of the class, and i would like to thank my classmates for giving me this opportunity even though i don’t really like it. I don’t think i can give my all to be a good assistant, and i admit, i am a lazy girl. I don’t feel like i deserve to get this post, because of my self, who likes to protest and argue the upper ones.

Whatever is it, i just hope that this new terms won’t be that hectic, busy and stuffs like that, because my mates and i will be having exams on the March and so automatically we all will be busy even without homeworks or assignments. (and i am blogging now, :p)

So, till then, see you guys in my next post!

My new year resolution :

I don’t have any serious ones, because i never achieve any success with this resolution thingy. I remembered, last year i was so desperate on losing weight, not spending more money on foods and useless stuffs, not to get involved with any lovey dovey thing, bla this and bla that. But in the end, those were all dreams, hopeless dreams, and history! I ended up gaining more weight, eating good food, buying useless stuffs which i can’t even remember where i placed them, and all that are seriously childish! So now, i decided that i won’t and i really won’t do any resolution! No way! To those who did this and wanted to repeat on planning a resolution again, i wish you guys good luck, and stay firm!

What I’m gonna do is just to continue what i am doing currently, which is to finish my foundation year and say bye bye to my ‘guru’. Spend more time with family is a must but that depends on my schedule also. How i wish next year’s class will not be that hectic and busy like this year’s so that i can spend more time doing other things maybe like looking for a part time job? Haha. (If only wishes can come true..)

So here, i would like to wish everyone a…..

Happy New Year 2009!

Hello readers.

Holidays is really really coming to an end, and seriously i am hating it! Oh my. It has been like what, 5 weeks since i left the college and i will have to go back next week! That is freaking fast! Yeah, time flies when you’re having fun right? But i didn’t had enough fun! Warghh!! (bang my head on the table 3X)I was so anticipated for the holidays back in November, and now, everything has vanished. Lawrence’s wedding is over, my birthday is over, Christmas is over, now what, waiting for New Year? That means like waiting for the college to re-open!

Whatever is it, i had fun in my hometown this December, i really really do. (despite of some sad feelings i had so oftenly that i have to pretend nothing ever happened) This month, i used quite a lot of money, shopping for Chinese New Year clothes, wedding accesories and shoes, movies, and so much more. But i still miss lepak-ing with Adam, Reva and Adnin in Oldtown, Grace to Ming Tien, and when i come to think that they won’t be around anymore next year, i actually got a little bit emo. Haihz. Will miss Grace super much la.

Anyways, again, i am so anticipated for the Chinese New Year next January. It’s like 4 more weeks and then its ‘Xing Nien’ (Mandarin for New Year) already! Wahoo~~~ I hoped there will be some cuti peristiwa for 1 week, and guess what, yes indeed!! Haha. But believe me, its a little bit weird. Look at this!

What’s the motive of having Ahad as a cuti peristiwa yang tidak perlu ganti, when Sunday is already a public holiday? So from my interpretation, Sunday is still the public holiday of the week, and so the cuti peristiwa is taken to Friday. And so, WE ALL WILL HAVE A WEEK FULL OF HOLIDAYS TO ENJOY OUR XING NIEN!!!! Wahooooo~ But this is my interpretation. We won’t know what will happen because, yea, we just won’t know. Just wait and see!

Till then, let us pray for the long holidays shall we?

Bye!

Yesterday, was my birthday.

Today, is the first day of Christmas.

And today also, is the day where Kor proposed my sister, Erjie.

Tomorrow, is my eldest sister’s birthday.

So, it is quadraple pleasure right? Here are some photos!

Ryan Oh the cute little boy!

Exchanged gifts!

San ko n Chey Chey, Tauke and Taukesoh!

Diamond ring!

Mom and the bride-to-be.

It is so wonderful to hear about the proposal. Chey even recorded a video, and Ryan was also super happy that he shouted and ran here and there (like he knows what happened…) Hehe.

Deck the halls with boughs of holly,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.
Tis the season to be jolly,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Don we now our gay apparel,
Fa la la, la la la, la la la.
Troll the ancient Yule tide carol,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.

See the blazing Yule before us,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.
Strike the harp and join the chorus.
Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Follow me in merry measure,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.
While I tell of Yule tide treasure,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Fast away the old year passes,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.
Hail the new, ye lads and lasses,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Sing we joyous, all together,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.
Heedless of the wind and weather,
Fa la la la la, la la la la.

Happy Christmas everybody! The year is just about to end and I would very much like to wish everyone a Happy New year and Joyous Christmas greetings to all the readers of my blog! Christmas is a very  special time of the year for us to remember those who are close to our hearts. May your days be bright, and your heart be light! May this glorious day of our Savior’s birth resound with hope and peace on earth!

And to all December babies out there especially :

My dearest sister, Ang Chey Chey (May Ang Chen Ling , Ryan’s mom) - 26th December 1974, Mr Kip, as known as The Kip - 31st December 1985, Lina - 9th December 1989, Koh Wai Yee - 25th December 1985, Adelynn Tay - 6th December 1988, Saw Nancie - 19th December 1989, Jarod a.k.a Ah Kam Koko - 31st December and Jesus - 25th December 6AD (please correct me if i am wrong) and everyone out there!

I hope u guys will have a wonderful celebration, a gathering of friends and i am here wishing you guys great happiness, a joy that never ends!

Happy Birthday and Many Returns of the Day!

And a Haapyyyyy Blaaasttinggggg Neeeewwww Yeeeeaaaaarrrrr!!!!!!!

Sometimes we ask ourselves, what does love really means, why is there no unconditional love, blablabla. But when I think about this love thingy again, i prefer to say that love, is actually an element built up by another feeling called : confused.

Like for example : i’ve been hanging out with this guy, we’ve been through lots of ups and downs together, i know him well and he knew what type of person i am. Then suddenly, something clicks in both of us and we ask ourselves, ‘Gosh, am i in love with him/her?’ and stuffs like that. And sometimes, we will react so cool, that we tell ourselves, ‘How can i fall in love with him/her, he/she always smack and hit me, if he’s/she’s my boyfriend/girlfriend then i’ll die.. blablablabla’ and then maybe we’ll say : ‘Eh, i think i like him/her la. We’re so close somemore, he’s a nice guy/girl blablablabla, and nothing is impossible right?’ Then both guy and girl will start to feel awkward being together then there goes! They become a couple.

That, is one of the many ways people can get together as a couple, and for me, i think it is the most confortable way since we already knew what type of people our partner was and will be. But what about love at first sight, love starts when people talks gossips, and stuffs like that? Well, i knew about the second one, but i know nothing about love at first sight. Yes, we may tend to like a good looking person but will that feeling stay for long or will it vanished once we found another good looking guy? So it doesn’t really makes sense. I know well about ‘love starts when people talks gossips’ because during my school days, this thing happened like for many times and i think most of the couple case in school are based on it.

However, people will still have their preferences to find their life partner. Like maybe for me, i will prefer a guy who can sing very well because he can sing to me whenever i feel down or something like that. Or maybe some guys will prefer girls who are presentable and pretty so that they can show off or blablabla? Even how the person cares for us, how he/she loves us, we still will stick to our preferences, because it is our preferences? (What the hell! :P)

Recently, i met this cute guy, (ehem) yea, not too cute but cute, (hahah!) and yes, i admire his cuteness. Well, i don’t like him as in, like him and want him to be partner but damn! He’s cute! Haha! I wanted so much to talk to him and stuff and guess what, i heard him singing also! Danggg~~ But luckily i didn’t talk to him or ask his phone number and stuffs because now i can’t even remember how he looks like. Whatever is it, i know this stupid feeling won’t last long, because i don’t even know him! Hahah~

Honestly for me, i would want to find a guy who can sing really well (like what i said in the previous paragraph) and can speak English and Hokkien very well so that i can communicate with him, and stuffs like that la. So, what about u?

Hello everyone!

Yesterday was my cousin’s wedding day, and i took lots of pictures of them! Well, actually i took a few only, so here are some!

Lisa & Lawrence, the beautiful bride and the charming groom.

Look, the ‘tai kam cheh’ is actually a ‘tai kam kong’! Haha.

My momy and daddy with the loving couple.

Me and YiangYiang! Me cousin!

Haha! Those are all the photos i can put. Will put more in Facebook later too and not to forget tomorrow’s wedding! (the bride’s side).

So till then, byebye!