Gosh gosh. I was so anticipated about the Going Green thingy but in the end i have to postpone it first. So they were to say that there will be some changes in the student’s affairs department, so i will have to wait for the new president to be elected. Blegh! I want Amali because he’s an easy guy to talk to. Now i have to wait till next week to discuss and present the proposal to orang orang yang sepatutnya. My enthusiasm hilang already. …

Went to Piccadilly yesterday night with cousins and cousin’s boyfriend a.k.a. Nigel’s bandmate. (Such a small world) Piccadilly is good!

Cousins!

Piccadilly (Taken from http://marksmakan.blogspot.com/2007/12/piccadilly-pj.html)

I was tuning to Light and Easy earlier this evening and i listened a song entitled Where Do Broken Heart Goes, sang by Whitney Houston. I were touched, for a while, so i downloaded the song and listen it for quite a couple of times. And i like it. Is it because the song has got something to do with me? No i don’t really think so. But we won’t know what will happen in future, blahh.. whatever la.

So here goes, i’m singing!! :

I know it’s been some time
But there’s something on my mind
You see, I haven’t been the same
Since that cold November day…
We said we needed space
But all we found was an empty place
And the only thing I learned
Is that I need you desperately…

Where do broken hearts go
Can they find their way home
Back to the open arms
Of a love that’s waiting there
And if somebody loves you
Won’t they always love you
I look in your eyes
And I know that you still care, for me..

Yes, it is a very memorable and sad day for me today. I spent half an hour crying like a child who losts his mom. How come? Yea, how come. 2 of my bestfriends left me for New Zealand today. Grace Lee, a very good friend from IPBA, and Nia, a very very good brother and friend since i was 13.

I’ll miss the dinner times with Grace, the pasar-malam hunting and also the lepak times with her. It is sad to think that we won’t have the chance to do that anymore because we won’t be seeing each other for 3 years, then she will be teaching in some place only God knows when i come back from France. I don’t even dare to think about it. But at least Grace didn’t cry just now so when i sent her off, i controlled my emotion even though i burst out earlier on.

And i’ll miss the times i spent with Nia in Oldtown Kopitiam, McDonalds, bowlings, movies, and everything. I remembered when we were both working in a hotel back in 2006, we were scolded by the manager because we played with the telephone. No, actually we didn’t play the phone, its just that Nia was in the new wing, and i was at the old wing so we just want to meet up for lunch. And there are just so many many more memories that we had together, and its all coming back into my mind!

But when i saw Nia just now, i could not help it but to burst my tears. His parents were so good. We took pictures together, his parents were asking about my studies, and stuffs like that. Being so close with him for 7 years makes me flash back all the times we had together. The quarrels, the eating sessions, the problem solving, and everything. The moment he called me and ask where i am, i became so nervous that i could not stop my heart from beating so fast. At that time, i know he’ll be leaving, and when Fik cried, i can’t tahan anymore. Tears keep rolling on my cheek and i couldn’t stand but to cry.

Later, more and more people are leaving, and i will be leaving too. I hope that all goes well for them, and i will pray that they will always be healthy.

*emo mode*

I keep thinking about my family. Dad will bring us out to search for food when it is breakfast, lunch, tea, dinner or supper time. Mom will cook us so many delicious food when its weekend. We’ll go over to Chey’s place whenever we feel like going because her house is super big. (and there they have lots of snacks too) Erjie, Kor, San Chey and me will go out shopping because that’s what we always do during the weekends.

Here, when i ask someone out, they will always say ok but in the end they didn’t turn up. With dad, we can go as far as we can even though he is tired.

Here, its hard to date people for dinner on time (after Adam and the gang went overseas) because they just don’t bother about other people. With mom, we can always have food whenever we are hungry

Here, sometimes i just feel unsecured because there are alot of weird people around me. At home, i won’t feel that way because i have mom and dad to protect me.

I miss my family…

1. I am worried. I realized that i am not progressing in my studies. I rarely study after classes, i start doing my homeworks and assignments only at night, and i don’t speak much in classes anymore. I feel ashamed.

2. I deleted my Friendster account. I tried numerous time sending message to my friends to acknowledge that i want to delete my account and i want them to email me their messenger id but the web page kept making error. I was mad, so i deleted without any hesitation.

3. Weirdo is a disaster. He won’t stop doing his weird stuff and i really can’t stand sitting beside him anymore. What’s the benefit for humming while the lecturer is in the class, yawning while kissing the table, and more weird stuffs. Come on, stop all that already! Hate it or not, you are the jerkiest among all jerks and i won’t talk to you even if you start a conversation! (I did that already actually)

4. I have a fever and a sore throat, and my voice is slowly fading away. *Catch it back!*

5. I don’t like literature because it is difficult and i have not yet see the benefit of reading literature books without understanding it properly. Besides, we still have not pass our B2 exam yet so why rush on preparing for C1?

6. It really get on my nerves when my message to somebody is not replied. Please understand that everybody has their limited credit to make calls and i am so sure that it isn’t that hard to reply only 1 message or to borrow 1 message from a friend.

7. Hypocrites are all around me but i can’t hate them anymore. All these people are the parts and parcels of my life in college so like it or not, i have to be strong and ignore my feelings.

Imagine, one self can have so many complaints that she/he can ever think of. But in this case, i am not demanding for anything. I just want to let things out because i don’t like sharing my complaints with anybody. In fact, nobody likes to hear them anyways! I know i don’t. This month sure will be quite a bad month for me but i won’t let it last long. I will try my best to build up my confidence and i won’t let other people step on me anymore. I will wave goodbye to those who ignored me, and i will welcome new winds that will share alot of things with me.

I am now hoping for a new and a better day..

1.what were u doing right before u got this tagging questions?

*man united goal! Haha. wana get 85 for my exam dis march.

8.do u believe in eternity love?
*i do. my mom n dad love me eternally.

9. What is your current addictions?
*bee coffee.

10.what are u really afraid of?
*death.

11.what is ur current hate?
*something personal. i hate my size. aha.

12.is there anything u wanna tell da people who hates u? (only to people that u don’t hate)
*what did i do?

13.do u cherish every single friendship of yours?
*i do! tak percaya? tanya ida azreena. my talking buddy.

14.what is your recent night dream?
*i forget ade.

15.what do u crave for the most currently?
*IKEA currypuff

16.most unexpected gift u received so far & when?

*me likes her.

*between 25-30 years of age.

19.what will u become in another 10 years to come?
*a teacher. with kids, i hope.

20.describe yourself in 3 words.

“But i’m so gonna miss you.. Sobb sobb..” that is what little Ryan will say everytime he leaves us, his three aunties. And now, little by little, i am learning to speak like how he speaks. Now i am so going to miss home very much.

Can’t help but to think that i will not be in next year’s family photo. Sigh.

I do hope that time will fly faster so that i will come back from France and celebrate CNY again with my dearest family, and celebrate Grandma’s birthday on the 3rd day of CNY. But i do hope that time will fly as slow as it could so that i will not have to part with my family so soon.

To all me friends out there,

Happy Chinese New Year!

Hope you guys will have a great and blasting one this year!

Collect more angpaus,

gather with all your family relatives and friends.

Gamble till you drop, drink till u get tipsy!

Ahahahah!

GONG XI GONG XI!!!

Woke up early in the morning just now, and hoped for the best in today’s presentation. We had both, 1 c’est la presentation de la politique en France, et j’ai expose sur le pouvoir judiciaire, et la suite c’est la presentation qui s’agit de Monsieur Pagnol et son roman intitulé ‘Le Château de Ma Mère’. (The first one is about the politique in France and i had to present about the justice powers, then after that we had to present about Marcel Pagnol, a famous autour who wrote the book My Mother’s Castle.

But it was a ‘suwey’ day for me today! It was so strange that my diaporama went lost and corrupted in some way, and i had to present without any slides! Kadewaleeeee~~~ Ok then so i was blamed for not keeping another copy in any pendrive but hey, how was i to know that only my part will lost that time. Its super weird because ce n’est que mon diaporama qui est perdu!! (only mine lost!) Merrdeeesss!! But eventhough i presented without slides and stuffs like that, i was able to present also. The lecturer said something that lifted my spirit up and up till now, i feel so bersemangat and i will try my very best to improve better and excel! Merci Monsieur Azhar!

“Vous lisez beaucoup, mais je sais bien que vous avez peur parce que votre diaporama est perdu. Mais en comparant les 4 personnes dans ta groupe, vous êtes toujours la gagnante! Comme vous êtes a l’aise dans l’orale, essayez de parler avec une langue assez haute, ça veut dire, utilisez les mots que vous avez chercher et reformuler avec vos propres mots. Comme ça vous pouvez aider vos amis a mieux comprendre. C’est un défi! Brève, ça va!”

(You read the text alot, but i know that you are scared because your diaporama had lost. But comparing you with your friends in the group, you were and always the winner! And since you already are good in orale, try to reformulate the words and the informations you found so that you can help your friends understand better. Its a challenge for you! Briefly, its good!)

Yeap, with this, i have more confidence in myself and i hope i will get the same (infact better!) testimony from him again! I am so happy. Haha!! Not to forget the presentation of Marcel Pagnol during Monsieur Liew’s class. He said très bien too!

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So today, we had a netball tournament and guess what, we lost! Hahaha. Too bad, i don’t know how to play netball, i nearly bounce the ball throughout the game because i am biasa with basketball already! Ahahahahah~ Tant pis la!!